Hello there!  Here’s a little clip of me…happy because one of my friends sent me a belated birthday gift with a couple of my favorite things.

Videos like this are fun to make, but lately they are hard to watch.  While photos or videos are being taken I feel cute and pretty; but when I view said material I see the reality of what settling into a lazy kind of comfort has done to my body.  It’s a reality check of sorts that is both upsetting and good for me.

I’d rather hide and not take any picture right now, but I make myself for two reasons:

1. I never let my weight stop me from living my life before and I’m not going to start now.
2. These photos capture where I am currently and they remind me why I’ve made the decision to pursue a healthier lifestyle again.

Part of pursuing healthier goals is journaling.  I do this both by blogging and I’ve purchased a fitspiration journal which has prompts to help get my mental juices flowing.

Each entry also has a health fact and a motivational quote such as this:

Fitspiration journals can be found at getfitbook.com

Most of the time I quickly glance over the preprinted stuff, but today’s inspiration caught my attention.

It’s a common enough phrase, but when I’m honest it’s not one I really wanted to see just yet.

However, I got to thinking… In recent months I found myself getting comfortable in an old lifestyle of not getting much intentional exercise in, eating whatever I wanted with very little tracking, and quite frankly it lead me to feel very uncomfortable.

I’ve been physically uncomfortable and emotionally uncomfortable when I see how large I’ve become and thus what others now see when they look at me.

Isn’t that ironic?  My old “comfort zone” made me uncomfortable.

Making time for exercise in the mornings and being intentional about my food intake, disciplining myself to pay attention to both what my body wants as well as needs, actually leaves me feeling more comfortable.

So, that is why I am choosing to take the steps necessary to lose weight and get healthier again.  I love myself too much to continue being “comfortable”.