Summer Vacation(ing)


This print from Mad Kitty Media looks good in my bathroom!

School was out here about three weeks ago and already we’ve had a very full and busy beginning to summer vacation.


My college girl who attends school in Arizona came out for a visit, her twin had gone to visit her and driven out here with her, so everyone was here on the last day of high school and we were able to have our traditional last-day-of-school ice cream with all five of us.  That was not expected, but it was fun.


We moved my Oklahoma girl into her apartment just in time for summer school and then a few days later my son and I drove out to Arizona with her sister.  She doesn’t have summer school, but summer jobs.

I was able to spend a week with my dad, visiting with one of my best friends while he was at work and then a few days down in the valley with my girl before we flew home.  I cooked for both of them and enjoying being able to do so.


Crafting is my love language. Cute dishtowels for my AZ girl!

I returned home to a body that had gotten used to the two-hour time difference and my son needing to be at the high school at 6:15am for his summer workout trainings.  Yikes!

A week later and I’m finally feeling adjusted back to Central time and getting somewhat into the groove of an earlier-than-school-days schedule…well, somewhat … because I’m still not going to bed early enough to feel rested when I wake at 5:45.

Coffee and/or naps are my friend!

On the health front…I gained about 5-6 pounds on vacation, but as of this morning I have lost 2.5 of those.  So, back in the groove I go.


Texas, you need to get Dutch Bros. Please and thank you.

I enjoyed the extras I had on vacation and I’ve enjoyed being home and finding my new normal again too.

I hope your summer is off to a good start wherever you are.  Thanks for checking in!



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Well May Just Flew By

And just like that we are a full week into June and I haven’t even come back to catch up much during May.  Whew!  🙂

It’s been a good month, a trying month, a remembering month and I’m still alive and well.  To recap….

When I think back to the beginning of the month…some mothering stress happened.  It’s life, but one child’s brain fart threw me emotionally and quite frankly worried me, and made me wonder if things would be okay.

I’m learning this is the joy of parenting older kids.  Learning that discipline still needs to occur, but a parent’s love also has to let go and rest in the hope better decisions will come in the future.   Whew!  Teething toddlers were easier than this… just saying.  *wink*


I’ve been blessed to be able to visit my girls this spring, and my son is the baby still at home…for one more year. 

My Mother’s Day was more of a weekend celebration.  I went up to Oklahoma to visit my daughter and attend a Mother’s Day Brunch her church put on.  We had a blast.  My son joined us and stayed with his friend and then we went home Sunday afternoon and I had flowers and a card waiting for me on the dinner table.  *awww….*


Remembering my deceased mom in love.

This is the third Mother’s Day without my mom and I still had moments of missing her.  My daughter and I wore bracelets my mom made to the brunch;  they matched the bohemian style and they were our little ode to Mom/Grandma in honor of the day.


Can we just stay here for a full nap??

The next weekend I enjoyed a spa party for my friend’s birthday.  Grown women treating themselves can be so much fun sometimes! 🙂


Hand-embellished dish towels.  Super easy to whip up!

These towels are becoming my favorite item to craft and give as gifts.  This set was for the birthday girl and they matched her kitchen perfectly.  I was glad since I couldn’t remember exactly how her kitchen looked.  lol


In memory of an exemplary young man.  

Memorial Day we always remember a young man who my husband used to have in his teen drama group at our church years ago.  Stephen was always smiling and I’ll never forget when his parents got the call no one ever wants to receive.  I always pray for his parents and his two brothers on this day especially.  And for the families of all those who paid the ultimate sacrifice for our freedom.

Memorial Day was also a day of celebrating two wonderful things….


Linen skirts + Sandals = Comfort to me … even for walks!

I made it a point to go for a walk while the men were lighting up grills in the park for our annual church BBQ.  Usually, the men go early to get the coals and meats cooking and the women show up later with all the fixings,kids, etc. just in time to eat.  This year I decided to go early and enjoy a nice long walk until the ladies showed up.

It was glorious!  I also ran into a heard of peacocks.  That’s another story for another time, but they were amazing!  It was a beautiful day for pictures and they are so used to being in the neighborhood they just walked around without giving thought to me or anyone else that was out and about.


Hello there, Sir! 

We almost bought our house in this neighborhood and I remembered being told about them, but we only came across a few.  On my walk I counted at least 14 peacocks — males and females — and about 10 of them were in one area at the same time.  So cool!


Just enjoying a walk and wondering why this human is taking so many pictures. 🙂


My son is in here somewhere…and so happy to be a part.

The other neat event was my son being able to play football with the guys at our church picnic.  It’s been three years since his skiing accident and he is just now being able to play sports again.  Our first picnic hear, almost two years ago, he had to sit out this game and was pretty sad, so it was a great feeling to see him being able to participate and know he was so happy to be able to do so.


I need to work on my hand placement for these kinds of pictures.  I’m really not trying to steal the key from him.  *insert eye roll*giggle*

Oh…how could I forget?!?!?  We finally signed the papers on our house this month!!!  The sellers are waiting for their new built home to be finished, so they are leasing the house back from us until they can move.  We have a contract for them to be out by July 15th.  This is our first home purchase and we are super excited!

As for the scale…I hit total -5.6 pounds lost since my restart in April.  I had hoped to be down another 4 pounds this month, instead of 2.2, but I’ll take it.  Right now, my goal is to weigh less at the end of every month than I started.  So…. onward we go with that aspect of my life.

I’m ending May feeling a little rebellious with regards to eating, but I’m doing some thinking on that subject and taking a look at what is holding me back/becoming my excuse.

In the  meantime, thanks for stoping by!  I’m going to go pack my suitcase for a summer vacation and I look forward to some relaxing time with my family and friends over the next couple of weeks.

Have a good day!

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WW – Year 2, Month 1

Me currently:

It’s been one month since I reset my weight with Weight Watchers, which basically means to me since I went back on the program.

A lot of people are posting their monthly weight loss stats on Instagram on a calendar and I thought I’d join in.

I weigh in every Monday morning, but I don’t want the pressure of having to post it weekly here or on Instagram;  I can commit to posting it monthly though.  🙂

I’m down -3.4 pounds this month.  Woo Hoo!  I’m pretty proud of those pounds because they are only a small indication of deeper emotional change that happened over this past month.

IMG_0470  Again, I remind you … It has been very freeing to allow myself to be okay with the past and begin to move forward.  I find myself pressing on as if I just began the program and allowing myself to live in that frame of mind is proving helpful for me.

However, there have been a few too many evenings of chocolate inhalation and that’s something I need to work on.   31c02bf43426caf4847f8e5ab7931e8a.jpgMy exercise is getting back into some regularity as well and that feels good.  My back was hurting something awful at the beginning of April — out of the blue — and I was so frustrated.  I had planned to get back into some running intervals and instead I did ice and heat intervals.  By the end of the week I finally googled “lower back pain” and read that non-aerobic exercise is actually good for it.

So, that day I went for a walk and what do you know…things loosened up and felt much better.

My back is much better, but it is still sore and accompanied by some hip pain.  So, I’m sticking to non-aerobic exercise, like the elliptical and walking, and working on core strengthening exercises.

I’m feeling more of a mojo to get back on track and that is a good thing.  It’s a wary and hesitant mojo, but it is showing up more often than not now.  It’s amazing to me how self love and forgiving oneself can bring a freedom to move forward in life.

So, here’s to another month ahead.  I’m thinking of setting some goals for myself, but I haven’t completed that list yet.  For now, it’s getting more hydration and eating less calories than I burn so as to see a few more pounds come off in May.  🙂

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To Share or Not To Share

The other day on Instagram I shared these video clips of me working out at home in my living room.  I thought it was a fun idea to share how I’m embracing being okay with whatever workout is best for my schedule currently…and then when I was previewing and trimming them I began to get second thoughts.

“Look how big I am.”

“I knew I felt every one of the extra pounds I’ve gained during the plank…”

“Videos sure don’t lie.”

These few random thoughts made me hesitate, but then I went ahead and posted them.

Because this is my story and my story isn’t one of a skinny healthy mama who posts videos of what many in the world want to see when they think of health.  It’s a story of real life.

As I hit “share” I remembered I also had some good thoughts about these videos.

“I have pretty good form!”

“I am getting it done!”

“I am okay with who I am right here and right now.”

*pause for contented sigh and blazing fierceness to drive the demons of comparison away*

Yep, my story is one that shows all the bumps along the journey and how it takes hard work and is humbling when failure happens.  It’s my story of how I won’t quit, and hopefully it will inspire others not to quit either.

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Best Thing I’ve Done in a While

It’s been two weeks since I really opened up about my need for a reset — a.k.a. a fresh start with Weight Watchers —  and I had to idea how good it would be for me emotionally.

  • I feel free from feeling like a failure for not losing any weight in the past year.
  • I feel like I can accept kudos for the 3.5 pounds I’ve lost so far this month.
  • I don’t feel like I have to apologize anymore for where I’m at.
  • I am learning to be okay with getting the workouts done that fit my current schedule(s).
  • I feel hopeful again.


Yes, I still need to be honest with myself and my need to get back to a healthier life.  Yes, it’s still a struggle some days;  in truth, it will always be a struggle for me.  And I think allowing myself this reset has been part of learning how to handle the struggle without giving up completely.

This week in our meeting we talked about taking care of yourself.  When asked, “What about this plan is working for you?” I responded, “The idea of a reset!  I’m still thrilled and encouraged by the support I got when I shared how I needed that.”

And for the first time in a long time I feel motivated to keep moving and not apologize for where I’m at in my journey.  (That’s another subject for another day. *wink*)

Thanks for stopping by!

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Thank You, Weight Watchers

Note:  The easiest way for me to share where I’m at was to write a letter, but this may or may not actually get seen by the WW corporate.  🙂

Dear Weight Watchers,

I bet no one ever writes to thank you for helping them lose absolutely nothing their first year on the program.  In fact, that’s probably not even good for business, but I’m here to do just that.

A year ago this month I walked into a Weight Watchers building a desperate, nervous wreck knowing I needed some healthy boundaries to reign in two years of gaining back half of 70 pounds I had lost on my own.

I had maintained that 70-pound loss for over a year, but when tragedy hit my life I didn’t know how to properly handle it with regards to my weight.  As our family worked through loss and healing we were faced with a last-minute change to our life plans and a new hometown and state left me reeling a bit.

To sum it up, I had gained 35 pounds back over two years and found myself slipping into the old-Leah thinking that none of it mattered.

And that scared me.

I had fought too hard to lose that weight, I had tasted and lived a new life as a healthier, fit mom and I knew I couldn’t quit.  However, simply tracking calories wasn’t enough of a plan for me, so I began seriously pondering Weight Watchers again.  I didn’t even know about the switch to Smart Points, but my many attempts at the plan had taught me Weight Watchers was always well balanced.  I knew I didn’t need anything extreme, just some healthy boundaries to get me back on track.

So, on a Monday in April 2016 I walked in the doors literally a nervous wreck that I wouldn’t be able to lose weight and signed up for the program.

I did lose weight, steadily and began feeling so much better.  My cravings for sweets went away with this new plan and I raved about how now sugars are taken into account to my health-interested friends.

However, more stress came and over the past year I have lost and gained the same 10 pounds at least two times leaving me weight exactly the same at the end of March 2017 as when I began in April 2016.

Waves of guilt began to wash over me and feelings of failure crept their way into my heart and mind.

I still made attempts at exercise, but my food just wasn’t getting with it and I felt like that’s a horrible example of being “on Weight Watchers”.  I would note my feelings and beyond-the-scale efforts on my Instagram account, but I found myself wanting to shut down my blog because I wasn’t getting anything done worth writing about.

And then it hit me, maybe I didn’t lose any weight last year, but I didn’t gain any weight either. 

After two years of gaining back 35 of the 70 pounds I had lost I finally maintained my weight for a year!

In an effort to regain my sanity my leader helped me reset my starting weight and we have started a new book for this second year on the program.  My meeting group and leader have been so supportive and encouraging about my journey, but I wanted to let you know what had happened as well.

It’s a beyond-the-scale kind of victory that someone like me, who struggles with emotional eating, is finally accepting as a success of some sort.  It’s the kind of non-scale victory that gives me hope to continue on this journey.

And for that I thank you.

Sincerely and hopefully yours,



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About Last Week

Well, Valentine’s week was nice and busy around here.  With the busy schedule I found it harder to make time to get some intentional exercise in, and then the cravings for goodies was crazy.

I was also exhausted; to the point that I went back to bed after taking my son to school on Wednesday and fell into a deep sleep for two hours.

That’s when it hit me… it must be ‘that time’.   I’m not sure if the tiredness was due to that, but the cravings certainly seemed to be.


The good thing is I went ahead and tracked almost every day, allowed myself that day to rest and recoup, and I didn’t beat myself up for the treats.  I know I need to live within healthy boundaries to be healthier, but I don’t believe in restricting myself to the point of self deprivation.

I wanted those yummy baked goods and enjoyed my fill and then put the rest in the freezer for my daughter to enjoy when she comes home during Spring Break.

I didn’t earn my blue dots for staying within my healthy smart point range the five days I wanted for the week, but I decided this is about life and while those blue dots are motivating me to stay on track each day in the long term it’s not going to matter that one week was a bit off.

After a week straying from “the plan” I was expecting a gain at weigh-in on Monday.  I was only up 0.6 of a lb, so my efforts to not throw all caution to the wind for the week helped me keep the gain to a minimum.

I’ll take it.  And now I keep going forward.

Have a good day and thanks for stopping by!

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I Love That I Don’t Quit

At Weight Watchers this week we were given a heart-shaped PostIt note and asked to write, “Tell me one thing you love about yourself or one thing you love that this program has done for you.” and put it on the bulletin board.

I wrote that I love my naturally curly hair and I love that this program helps me keep track of my sugar intake.

When she asked if anyone wanted to share what they wrote I really thought a little more about what she was asking.  And it hit me.

I love that I don’t quit.

She discussed how it’s easy to see what we love about other people, but once in a while we need to stop and look at ourselves and see ourselves with the same love and grace others view us with.

On this day where we celebrate love, and after having thought about how I love that I keep getting back up, I remembered this moment.kiss_13_1_finish-line-copy

This photo signifies so much to me.

It was taken at the completion of my second half marathon in May 2015 and my husband had just put my finisher’s medal around my neck.

My husband and I were going through some rough times and the training for this half marathon had become more therapeutic than any other running I’d done to date.

In fact, I almost quit the training and was going to back out of the race because I just didn’t think I could handle it all.

But I didn’t quit.

And for the first time ever I ran only to music and I thought a lot.  During those miles I found a strength deep within to press through the training, through the bumpy road life was taking me down, through the lessons I was learning in the process and as I finished one extremely rough 11-mile run I remember saying out loud, “I am an endurance athlete! You picked the wrong person to mess with, because I don’t quit.”

I may not be running right now, but that fire that pushed me through those runs is still pushing me to keep fighting for my health.

It died down to a flicker for a bit, but as I’m easing into 2017 it’s beginning to glow brighter.  For the first time in a very long time I feel back to what used to be my “new” self.

Photos and glances in the mirror remind me that I am not the same person physically as in this picture, but the spirit that drove me to finish that half marathon when some things in my life were turned upside down is still there.

Because I don’t quit.  I won’t quit.

And that guy and those problems?  We didn’t quit either.  We kept fighting.  We got back up.

With 21 years (and counting) of marriage under our belts we still agree it’s all worth fighting for.   I’m one blessed woman.

Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone!

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Ready For the New Year Now

As I turned my calendar to February yesterday I had this thought, “Now I’m ready for the new year.”

Allowing myself to enter 2017 slowly was one of the best things I could have done for myself.  It gave me time to work through some sadness and think about what I really want for this time in my life — “this time” being mostly the here and now, with thoughts to the future, but not focused too much on the future … a day at a time as they say.

Case in point:  I set some goals for the new year and to support one of those goals I made a January goal of getting a plan of action for said goal on paper.

That was it.  “This month I will do this to move forward on this goal I want to happen this year.”

It was freeing to allow myself to do what works for me.

It was even more freeing to not really care what anyone else thought about my plan.

Of course, as soon as I felt so free not caring about opinions something was said via social media that unintentionally threw me into “Am I doing the right thing?!?!” thinking.

And I took another week thinking, talking it out with a friend and coming to the conclusion that yes, I am doing the right thing — for me and for where I’m at in my life right now.

Again, so freeing to not live bound by the need for people’s approval.

So, this year I needed a month to work through some things before I felt strong and ready to tackle projects. And you know what?  I’m so glad I took my time and really thought through things.

Because I’m ready now and I’m already making progress in my health like I haven’t made in a long time.  *insert very contented sigh*


End note:  The scale agreed that these changes in mindset and subsequent actions were working and was down -1.8 this week… in case you were wondering.  🙂

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Weigh-In …Rediscovering My Own Race

If you’re one to judge by the scale, then I had a “bad” week:

Weigh-In:  +3.6 lbs.

But if you ask me how my week went I’ll tell you it was really good.

Because you’ll most like read and think, “You don’t gain 3 pounds on a good week.” let me deal with that number first.  Here it is:

(A) I knew the -4.0 last week at weigh-in was a little too high for the effort I’d given my eating the week prior.  So, after this week I have maintained a -0.4 loss, which is fair.

Especially considering….

(B) TOM showed up yesterday morning, which explained why I had so many cravings for Ritz crackers, chocolate, hot cocoa and once all three in the same sitting.  I’m not exactly proud of that, but there it is and those crackers and chocolate did get dumped in the garbage before I polished both off.

I own the week.  I thought I wasn’t due to begin my mentstrual cycle til next week, so I’m kind of glad it was early/I was off, because it does explain those carby cravings.  Whew!

I also own that I need to eat better.  Not just because I want to weigh a little less, but because crackers, chocolate, crackers dipped in chocolate and evening cups of hot cocoa can not be a regular thing due to their high sugar content and my family history of Type II Diabetes I’m trying to avoid.

However, last week I had some major mental breakthroughs regarding why I’ve chosen the plan I have to help me get healthier, being okay with the type of exercise I’ve chosen to do and for the first time in a LONG time I felt like I could even lose this weight the way I did before — without a specific plan and simply tracking what I eat to stay within a calorie budget.

I don’t think I’ll do the later just yet, because quite honestly I enjoy going to Weight Watchers meetings.  I have an awesome leader that truly looks beyond the scale and encourages lifestyle change, not simply following a diet.

And I know I need the accountability that comes from tracking my food and weighing in weekly.  I had a great chat with someone I’ve never met on social media about “diet mentality” and she said I’m still laced with diet mentality in my thinking.

Well, I have many thoughts to share on that subject, but for today suffice it to say we all need rules to govern certain aspects of our lives and her conversation made me really think about my choices and why I’m doing what I’m doing.

And I’m confident that what I’m choosing to do will lead me where I want to go.  I just need to keep that darn chocolate at bay more often than not.  lol

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