Emotional Link?

Posted on May 16, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding
**Warning…this is not as organized a post as I’d like it to be, but I don’t have time to perfect it right now.***

I’ve posted a lot recently about being so busy and feeling stressed out from the extracurricular activities we’ve had going on as well. Part of me has felt like a whiner for posting so much about it, because I know there are many moms out there that work full time and manage a very busy household on top of it.

My heart’s desire is to be busy taking care of my home and not working so that it why I tend to want to “whine” about it. So, when my weekends are so full of activity that my housework and laundry fall behind it stressed me out.
There has been something else stressing me out a little as well. I waited to mention it after my weigh-in yesterday on purpose, because I did not want this bit of information to sound like an excuse should I have seen a maintenance or gain. I also put off telling everyone about this because my blog is about my weight loss journey and not about my daily life and I’ve no desire to seek pity from anyone.
However, I’m thinking that this information could have a very real impact on my weight loss journey. So, let me know what you think.
In April we found out that my brother has cancer in his leg. He is currently undergoing chemotherapy treatments before they can operate. He lives in a different state than both me and our parents, but is surrounded by a wonderful wife, in-laws and friends that are very supportive and helpful. I’ve been making plans to go see him when school is out here and then ….
Two weeks ago I found out my mom has breast cancer. It’s been a few weeks of “A lump..we’re waiting for results…Yes, breast cancer, now waiting to see what they’re going to do…yes surgery, but not sure when…” etc. etc.
So, on top of working full time, 50% of my family has cancer and now I have to end my sub job two days early to fly be with my mom and dad, which means I have grades to enter, a house to get in order, etc. etc. And the news of my moms’ cancer hit right during PMS.
Maybe this explains the weight gain, or why I’ve desperately needed the rest at the end of long days, or why I had no desire to get up early to workout.
Stressed? Just a little.
I am a woman of faith and I truly believe God has a plan for why this is all happening. I also believe that he can do a miracle, whether it be of complete healing or a miracle of strength to get through it all.
Lately, I’m also thinking that this has had a greater impact on my weight loss journey that I ever imagined it would. (Especially that week or so when I love chocolate and don’t care about what I’m eating. ) For me, I’ve been so busy with planning and such that workouts aren’t even in the picture, and I honestly haven’t cared with the exception of worrying I’ll lose my muscle tone and what “blogland” will think about my lack of working out. Thankfully the eating has been much better this week and I know I’m not turning to food in this time of stress. I’m taking it a day at a time and I know I’ll get through it and the workouts will get back into the picture when life slows down a bit.
I’m not exactly expecting you to comment, but you’re welcomed to your view of my journey. I just thought that maybe sharing this personal information would give you more insight as to why I seem so stressed lately. Maybe you haven’t noticed, and then that is good. Just keep right on not noticing. :o)
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Weigh-In …(1st GOAL!!) Getttin With It Update #7

Posted on May 14, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Today’s Weight: 199.0

Loss/Gain: -4.0 lbs
Total Loss So Far: -32 lbs.
I’ve finally hit onederland on my official weigh-in day. The best part about this is that I’ve seen this number on the scale the last three days, so I know it’s more than likely here to stay.
With everything going on in my life right now it’s great news to behold.
This means that I’ve finally reached my first goal in my weight loss journey of 199. I’m going to leave my ticker (down on bottom of blog) showing nothing more to reach to get to my first goal for a day or so just to bask in the glory of it all. Then I will put on my new goal of 170.
As for my Gettin’ With It challenge, I didn’t hit all points perfectly, but I know I’m getting back to normal and I feel so much better for it. Here’s a quick update:

  • First off … I want to see at least 10 pounds lost – Beginning weight is 205.0. 6/10 lost so far. We’ll see what I can accomplish in my final week.
  • Take my mutli-vitamin and calcium daily. No.
  • Drink 64 oz. of water daily. I drank water daily, but not sure if I hit 64 oz. each day.
  • One sweet treat a day. This was much better and almost back to normal for the entire week. Yay!!!
  • Eat one fruit or veggie with each meal. No, but I know I got at least two a day in.
  • No snacking if I’m not truly hungry. Again, this was much, much better this week. Back to “normal”.
  • Exercise at least 4 days a week. No. I didn’t work out once this week. However, I have not quit working out, just took a sabbatical this week. I know the rest was much needed and I will be back to it soon.
Thanks for checking in!

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Feeling Better

Posted on May 12, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Well, I am feeling a little bit more like I’m getting back to my new normal. The eating has been better and I’m getting the water back in daily.

I have not worked out at all this week, but I’m not worried. I have been getting to bed late due to household chores, running errands, etc. and so I feel better getting those extra 30-40 minutes of rest each night. I will get back into a workout routine, and if I’m feeling better about getting up early tomorrow, Friday or Saturday I will. There’s no waiting until next week for this lady. 🙂
Tricia commented on a new workout I might get to try, oh maybe tomorrow, so that must mean my package with the kettlebell and workout DVD is on its way. I’m looking forward to try it and telling you all about it.
Until later, my friends. Have a great rest of your week!
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That’s Enough

Posted on May 12, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Well, I had posted about an hour or so ago with more whining about missing being able to go to the gym to workout. I have just deleted it.

As I was gone running an errand I decided to stop whining and just deal with it.
So, I will.
I will get into a new routine eventually and I will not complain any more in the meantime. It’s my choice to work on my weight or not care. I choose to care, so I will choose to get in good exercise no matter the circumstances around me.
Also, thanks for keeping up your blogs. Perusing them last night brought great encouragement to my soul!!
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Homesick

Posted on May 11, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

No, I’m not at home and sick.

I’m homesick. I miss what is the norm and I want it back.
This has hit me in the last couple of hours and I’m also rejoicing because it means I didn’t “lose it” when I was eating too much Taco Bell last night, or chocolate candy on Saturday.
These last two weeks of working full time have thrown my weight loss journey into a tizzy. I found myself wanting to munch at school throughout the day. Of course, PMS was no help in this matter at all.
As I type I’m amazed I didn’t gain more than 2.5 pounds. I guess that shows I wasn’t all that far off, but there were moments (especially over this past weekend) when I felt like I was the old Leah again. I was eating beyond full, snacking on candy when I wasn’t even hungry and not drinking hardly any water.
So, today I tried to do better. I drank more water and even went as far as to not eat breakfast until I felt hungry (10:00 am while my class was at P.E.). I had my breakfast and then I ate a kind of large lunch. So I didn’t eat dinner at the normal time because I wasn’t hungry. Now I’m hungry and I’m going to go eat, but it’s 8:16 p.m.
In a way I’m glad I made myself wait until I was hungry to eat because it showed me that I haven’t lost my mind…I just took a vacation and now I’m ready to go back home.
Back to snacking on the fruits and being content with smaller portions of real food and not junk.
So, here I am. I’m telling you, for the umpteenth time, that I have not quit. I’m also letting you know that it feels so good to be “home” and back to my healthier habits.
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Weigh-In … Getttin With It Update #6

Posted on May 8, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Friday’s weight: 203.0
Loss/Gain: +1.0 lb
Total Loss So Far: -28 lbs.
I’m busier than all get out, thus forgetting to post my weigh-in yesterday. It was a very ‘off-plan’ week.
I’m learning lessons about how our eating habits can be so easily affected by our daily schedules. I’ll write more later, because I’m very upset with this 2.5 lb gain over the last two weeks. I know that PMS has had something to do with it, but I’m also noticing some other things going on while I switched to working full time.
Be assured though that while I’m frustrated that my challenge is getting thrown for a loop I am not giving up. I decided this morning that I WILL stick with my challenge for these last two weeks and see that scale get past 200 by May 21st.
In the meantime, here’s my update for my Gettin With It challenge.

  • First off … I want to see at least 10 pounds lost – Beginning weight is 205.0. Another gain and currently only down 2 out of 10 pounds. You can imagine my frustration with this.
  • Take my mutli-vitamin and calcium daily. No. I think I only took it once if at all.
  • Drink 64 oz. of water daily. No.
  • One sweet treat a day. No, but usually no more than two.
  • Eat one fruit or veggie with each meal. No, but I know I got at least one in a day, if not two.
  • No snacking if I’m not truly hungry. This was better than last week, but there was still snacking going on when not hungry. Larger meals kept me filled up for most of the days.
  • Exercise at least 4 days a week. YES! I got up and worked out four mornings this week before work. This is the silver lining on my cloud this week.
Thanks for checking in!

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Morning Report

Posted on May 6, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

No, I did not get up early today. I woke up with monthly cramps that, for me, are like early labor pains. So, sleep and then a hot shower were best today. I think it would’ve been better if I had taken some Aleve last night to mask the pain in the morning.

I’m not freaking out about interrupting my early morning workout streak as I do commit to four days of working out Monday through Friday. So, tomorrow is going to be my fourth day.
I have a long day ahead of me, so I will get going.
Thanks for the comments and checking in on me. I hope you don’t feel I’ve let you down. I’ll be back tomorrow with my weigh-in and challenge update.
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Three Days In A Row

Posted on May 6, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding


I got up again early this morning to workout. Go me!

On top of working full time again this week, fitting in early morning workouts and some other personal “stuff”, I also have a mother-daughter luncheon I’m putting on this Saturday. So my evenings have been busy with household, kids practices, “stuff” and getting things ready for the lunch.
I want to post more, but I need to get to bed before I stay up so late that I won’t workout tomorrow. Although…I’m up late tonight because we have church on Wednesday nights and I couldn’t resist catching up on some blog reading.
Oh, yea, and TOM arrived today and if I have cramps I’m not going to feel like waking up early to workout tomorrow. *SIGH*
But…it’s a non-negotiable right? Darn. 🙂 I’ll let you know if I get up on Thursday or not. In the meantime, I’m off to bed.
G’nite blog friends!
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Non-Negotiable

Posted on May 5, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

I’m liking this term today. It’s a common thought that kept coming through the comments yesterday after I posted about having a hard time getting up early to workout in the mornings.

Dictionary.com had this to say about the word non-negotiable:

Non-Negotiable definition

1. A term relating to the price of a good or security which is firmly established and cannot be adjusted.

“…firmly established and cannot be adjusted.”

That is what I am going to strive to make my morning workouts. I will work towards making them firmly established parts of my day that cannot be adjusted.

In fact, I’ve already worked on it. Today I got up at 5:45 to workout early. As my alarm went off at 5:30 am I thought, “This is non-negotiable. I will get up and workout.” It took me a few minutes, but I did get up and I completed a Leslie Sansone 2-mile walk DVD for 30 minutes.

Now if I can just get me an elliptical machine or treadmill to use at home I’d be one spoiled woman!! 🙂 That’s only because I don’t feel like jogging outside where it’s windy, but that’s another topic for another time.

In the meantime I will close up today by thanking everyone for sharing your words of wisdom and encouragement on this new challenge in my weight loss journey. I appreciate it!!


p.s. When I get a spare minute I have another post about how falling back into bad habits while working probably had more to do with my gain last week than TOM, because that chocolate junk hit me over the weekend and I’m still waiting for it to arrive…. More later.

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Early Morning Rising

Posted on May 3, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Well, it’s another week and a new chance to start working out in the mornings.

I did today. Yes, I got up early and did the 30-day Shred before getting ready for school. As I showered I thought about how good it felt to workout and to know I got a workout in and done for the day. I told myself to try and remember how good it felt each morning that the alarm goes off and I don’t want to get up any earlier.
Though I dread even thinking about it, my goal for this week is to get up to workout early at least four out of the five school days.
Exercise is a must in this journey. I’m getting to wear I truly enjoy a good workout (sometimes more when it’s finished than when I’m pushing through it). When I feel the sweat and know how my legs are stronger when I’m walking around during the day it’s a wonderful thing!
I leave you with some questions. These are things I’d chat with you about if we were at a health-related meeting, because I’m having a hard time getting up earlier right now.
  1. What time of day is easiest for you to workout?
  2. If you workout in the mornings, early mornings, was it always easy to do? If you work out later
  3. How do you overcome the “flesh” and just make yourself get up in the mornings to workout?
I’m sure someone will tell me to “just do it”, so for now that is my goal. I’m also doing better at getting to bed earlier as I know that makes a difference. I just wanted to see if anyone had any thoughts or comments to share on this topic.
I hope you all have a wonderful week!
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