No, I’m not at home and sick.
I’m homesick. I miss what is the norm and I want it back.
This has hit me in the last couple of hours and I’m also rejoicing because it means I didn’t “lose it” when I was eating too much Taco Bell last night, or chocolate candy on Saturday.
These last two weeks of working full time have thrown my weight loss journey into a tizzy. I found myself wanting to munch at school throughout the day. Of course, PMS was no help in this matter at all.
As I type I’m amazed I didn’t gain more than 2.5 pounds. I guess that shows I wasn’t all that far off, but there were moments (especially over this past weekend) when I felt like I was the old Leah again. I was eating beyond full, snacking on candy when I wasn’t even hungry and not drinking hardly any water.
So, today I tried to do better. I drank more water and even went as far as to not eat breakfast until I felt hungry (10:00 am while my class was at P.E.). I had my breakfast and then I ate a kind of large lunch. So I didn’t eat dinner at the normal time because I wasn’t hungry. Now I’m hungry and I’m going to go eat, but it’s 8:16 p.m.
In a way I’m glad I made myself wait until I was hungry to eat because it showed me that I haven’t lost my mind…I just took a vacation and now I’m ready to go back home.
Back to snacking on the fruits and being content with smaller portions of real food and not junk.
So, here I am. I’m telling you, for the umpteenth time, that I have not quit. I’m also letting you know that it feels so good to be “home” and back to my healthier habits.