Holidays Are Still Hard

Posted on April 26, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

To Anyone Who Has Ever Lost Weight and Lived To Tell About It:

Have you ever wanted to whine about what horrible choices you made during a holiday or food gathering and then realized that it’s the same story at every holiday? And…people are probably sick of reading that kind of stuff?
I had a nice long post on here about how I overindulged yesterday at a church potluck, yada, yada. Then I realized I sounded like a whiner and I need to quit that.
So, instead of going back into it, I’m just on here to say that I’m still learning.
For the sake of trying to encourage others, I am sorry that I’m not at my goal weight already and setting a good example for you who are struggling with weight issues. I wish I were being the best weight loss example ever (like Diane or Lori).
But I will keep working on it. I will get to a healthy weight eventually, and then will I continue practicing this maintenance that I seemed to have been so good at this last month.
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Weigh-In … Power to Overcome

Posted on April 22, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Today’s Weight: 181 . 5
Loss/Gain: – 1 . 5 lbs.
Total Loss So Far: -49 . 5 lbs
More than the miracle that I’ve finally seen a loss for the first time in almost a month is that TOM arrived yesterday. So, I saw a loss AND it was during PMS… funny. 🙂
Speaking of funny… yesterday I was in Sam’s Club and the cashiers were discussing one of them needing her break to “do her thing”. Being the outgoing sort I am, we were also chatting a bit and the one who needed the break says, in response to the “do her thing” comment, “I’m embarrassed to say it, but I smoke.” To which I responded, “I eat. We all have our issues.” We all laughed a bit chatted a little more.
As I finished paying I walked a little closer to the smoker and shared this, “I’ve lost 50 pounds and it’s taken me almost two years.” She ooh’d and wow’d, but I continued, “It’s been the hardest thing for me and has really showed me that we all have struggles. It’s given me a new respect for those trying to break a habit like smoking.”
She nodded and, unfortunately, I saw a customer coming so I had to cut it short and leave her with, “Yes, sometimes it takes nothing short of a miracle.”
And a miracle is exactly what I want to leave you with today.
It’s Good Friday and the day we can remember the miracle of Jesus Christ’s willingness to give himself to pay the price for our sins, yes even the sin of gluttony. Yet, he didn’t just die, but he rose again.
Matthew 28:6 says, “He is not here, he is risen, just as he said..”
Jesus’ death and resurrection not only paid the price for all of our sins, but it gave us the power to overcome anything life throws at us.
“But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” – 1 Cor. 15:57
This, my blogland friends, includes the power to overcome an addiction to food, or cigarettes or whatever struggle you find hard to break in your life. You don’t have to do it alone. Jesus is the answer for whatever need you have, and I can tell you in the many years I’ve spent living for Him he has never let me down.
I pray you all have a blessed Easter weekend. If you do not know Christ personally I also pray that over this weekend you’ll consider the truth behind what I say. God is faithful and he will hear anyone who cries out to him.

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Start Now

Posted on April 21, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

I found this amidst the magnets on my fridge last week when I cleaned it. So true…. (please excuse the quick scanning job that didn’t crop to the fortune. )

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Productive Day

Posted on April 20, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Today was laundry day. I didn’t get any done yesterday, so that meant it was all going to be done today. Well, usually I do a DVD at home on laundry day, so I can get the clothes started washing early and keep things going while not losing time on the commute to the gym.
Problem today was that I did a DVD yesterday and knew I really needed to get a gym workout in because I was scheduled to work Thursday and Friday.
I didn’t really feel like going, and wanted my laundry day excuse, but it wasn’t working. So, I put a load of laundry in and headed out early (for me) to the gym. I remembered my husband saying the laundry would get done, so I decided to make it work.
And I was glad I did when I finished 30 minutes of walk/jogging on treadmill and 30 minutes hard on the bike. Whew…S.W.E.A.T.Y. 🙂
So, the last load is almost done drying, everything else is folded and I even found time to work on digital scrapbooked end-of-year gifts for teachers this afternoon.
It’s been a very busy, but productive day and I will sleep well tonight because of it. 🙂
p.s. Food … not so great in the evening, but still working on that and I am tracking. G’nite!
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Never Going Back to Okay

Posted on April 19, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

It’s been rough getting back on track with my weight loss, but today I…

  • exercised for 45 minutes and had the sweat to prove it.
  • Drank some water (didn’t quite hit 64 oz, but got close.)
  • Tracked most of my food, not all because of below…
  • Ate until satisfied at a birthday party this evening, even though I desperately wanted to go back for more. I didn’t allow myself, because I knew I’d had enough and I felt better for it. I wasn’t stuffed at all when we left to come home.
Victory!
Also, I want to share a song that one of my daughters bought for her iPod. The beauty of iTunes is that I was able to put this on my iPod as well and now I love to run to it.
It reminds me that no matter how frustrating or hard this journey gets I’m never going back to okay, never going back to easy. This is my new ending, not my same-old-weight-loss-failure story.
G’nite!
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Weigh-In … Holding

Posted on April 15, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Today’s Weight: 183 . 0

Loss/Gain: 0
Total Loss So Far: 48 . 0 lbs
All I can say is I’m glad I didn’t gain. My post written last night explains more of where I’m at right now.
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What’s It Gonna Take?

Posted on April 15, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Today we had an issue with one of our children that required some discipline and a talking to. During the course of my husband talking to the child I overhear him say, “What’s it going to take for you to learn?”
My mind instantly responded with, “Yea, Leah, what’s it going to take for you to learn? This is [child]’s issue that needs dealing with, but you have an issue as well. When are you going to gain control over this area and get the weight off?”
I know two other people personally who have put off taking care of their weight at all, even though they knew that they needed to do something. One finally is trying to take care of things due to a major wake-up call by the doctor.
Now I truly believe we need to learn to love ourselves as we are, and we don’t necessarily need to beat ourselves up over slow weight loss. But what is it going to take for us me to realize that I’m still overweight and unhealthy?
Yes, I’m around 50 pounds down, but 183 isn’t near a healthy weight for a 5′ 4″ woman. In fact, I read an article today in Shape magazine wherein the testimonial of this woman stated how she hit her highest weight of 183 (at 5′ 5″) and was disgusted with how big she had become.
Her ‘ah-ha’ moment came when she hit the weight I’m glad to have reached.
Again, I know that I am happy to be where I am. I feel better than I have in years, but the truth of the matter is that I am not done and I have habits that need breaking – daily, even hourly – if I am ever going to reach my healthy goal weight.
While this may all sound very vexing I have to tell you it’s more like a reality check for me. I’m having a rough time getting back on track, but I know I’m capable. I’ve had great days and weeks where it wasn’t as hard, and I’ve even fasted for three days straight in the past, so I know I can do this.
What I have to ask myself is what’s it gonna take for me to realize that I’m not healthy yet and have a lot of work to do?
Reading that article where her highest weight was me now?
A doctor to remind me that at 183 I’m still considered “obese”?
Feeling guilty while correcting a child to reign in a bad habit while I hide my overeating?
This is the question that plagues me right now and one I need to work on answering. Honestly, if I lost five pounds a month I’d be content, but right now I’m not even doing that.
Thanks for listening.
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Step Away From Snacking

Posted on April 13, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Snacking lately has been a problem for me, and so I’m not bouncing back into my new normal as well as I would’ve liked. sheesh.

I know what needs to happen and I’m happy to say that I’m tracking food good again. Food tracking is showing me just how much I snack. ouch.
So, that’s where I’m at on this lovely, sunny Wednesday.
On a happy note…I bought two t-shirts at Kohls today that are size L … Large. The extra larges are just too big to justify buying them new now. I still wear some of my old ones, but they are nice and loose. Yay! It’s a great feeling, and actually helped me feel more like getting on track to get this weight going back down.
Now I need to remind myself of two things when I want to snack:
  1. How yucky I felt after eating too much.
  2. How wonderful it felt to buy a smaller size.
Until next time…
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Back to Routine

Posted on April 11, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

My friend left last night. She got in pretty late and today I told her I felt bad that she didn’t have time to rest before getting back to work this morning. She replied that she didn’t mind as she was glad to get back into the routine.

I totally understand that feeling, and it’s exactly how I feel today as I return to my regular weight-loss routines of tracking my food, not eating out as much and getting exercise in.
We enjoyed our week immensely, but I did find that my body was getting a little, how do I say it, sick of restaurant foods? It’s the weirdest feeling, but I think I was so ready to eat lighter foods at home.
I love to cook/eat, and did cook plenty during the week, but I also took her to probably at least four local restaurants for lunches and oh maybe three that she loves and doesn’t have where she lives. We enjoyed the food and conversation and I managed to maintain for the week, but my body is ready to get back to my new normal.
So today I’ve already been to the gym for a good, sweaty hour-long workout. I’ve had my light lunch and will be going to track my foods for the day when I’m done posting.
Have a great week everyone!
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Weigh-In … Visiting Friend

Posted on April 8, 2011 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Today’s Weight: 183 . 0

Loss/Gain: +/- 0
Total Weight Loss So Far: -48 . 0
I am satisfied with this maintain. One of my best friends from out of town has been visiting all week and I knew if I maintained I would be happy. We’ve been taking her to some local places to eat and try some things more native to Oklahoma, like amazing bar-b-q, and a wonderful local custard place. Of course, having company also means the schedule is a bit different from normal (read: workouts are different)
However, she is trying to get motivated to lose weight, so we’ve actually made time for exercise a few times this week. And while we’ve spent plenty of time sitting and chatting over coffee, we’ve also stayed really busy with activities and not simply sat around all day.
While I didn’t lose weight with her here I did find myself making some decisions with regards to food that made me realize I have changed. I’ve enjoyed some treats, but I didn’t throw the week. My prayer is that she noticed some of those changes and it will show her that she too can lose weight.
Meanwhile, we are just under two months from graduation, so I know that I will be back to getting things in serious weight-loss mode. Remember my original goal was to have lost enough weight to be able to buy a dress for my husband’s graduation in the regular sizes section of a store. Well, I’ve been looking around and there are some really cute dresses out there that I look forward to trying on soon. 🙂
Thanks for checking in and have a great Friday!!
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