This may or may not be the last time I post here, but I feel a need to post that if I decide to quit blogging it will not be because I’ve given up on my health.
Ten years ago this May I started blogging to talk about my struggles with food with someone and hoping that in putting my issues “out there” I would inspire anyone else who is struggling that they aren’t alone. It was exactly what I needed at that time.
Over the next years I became one with my phrase “my new ending” and it became part of my identity. However, when I started gaining weight back after maintaining my loss for over a year I began to feel like I’d let down the “new ending” part of me, and anyone who was inspired by it.
This last year brought a change I never saw coming — another move when we thought we’d found our settling place — and shortly thereafter I made a decision to quit dieting.
I decided to heal my relationship with food and learn to nourish my body with what it wants and needs, not simply restrict to fit into a certain size of clothes.
Does this mean I’ve given up? Absolutely not. The introspection and forcing myself to face why I choose regularly to overeat is actually a lot harder than sticking to a diet and stuffing down the “why”s.
In the past I would blog to share about this journey and the success I was making; however, right now this blog and my Instagram account by the same name are proving to be more triggers than helpful. The line “my new ending” reminds me of dieting and so, for now, I will not be blogging and I’ve disabled my Instagram account.
The only reason I don’t delete both is because this is all part of my story and I’m not 100% sure I’m ready to give it up completely. Maybe when it’s time to renew the domain I’ll make the decision whether or not to keep the blog up. We shall see.
Part of me would love to keep journaling online about my journey, but another part of me feels I have really moved on and it’s time to embrace a new chapter in my life.
Thank you to those of you who have been faithfully following and encouraging me in my journey. It has meant a lot!
There’s a whole year ahead…365 days of opportunities and choices to be made for the better of my health and I look forward to continuing to take it a day at a time…even if I don’t share about it all online right now.