Thinking late at night can be detrimental to my mental health because I tend to vex on things that really aren’t important, or not as important as I make them out to be.
I’ve lost 24 pounds in the last eight months. I am very proud of this and even more proud that I’m losing inches along with it due to my recent increase in exercise.
However, after catching up on my weight loss blog reading this evening I began to think…
This is only 3 pounds a month, which is approximately 0.75 pounds a week.
I’m a little upset by this slow progress, but I think I’m more upset when I see that so many people just stuck to their diets and got it done. They decided to do it, did it and reached their goals in a year or just over.
In May of last year I decided that I wasn’t going to start a diet to lose weight. I was going to make small changes to better my health with the final goal in mind of buying a nice dress for my husband’s dental school graduation in May 2011 coming from a regular sizes department versus a plus sizes department.
Along the way I’ve made small, good changes in my eating and really upped my exercise level, but I’m still seeing so many of the bad habits with my eating. I do good for a couple of days and then I do fine. Or I eat fine at meals and then catch myself munching. *sigh* This bothers me, but I know it’s no one’s fault but my own.
It is something I need to work on, because, honestly…I’m tired of posting my weigh-ins and seeing them go up and down every week. Well, actually I’m only kind of tired of it. I don’t mind what I see on the scale as long as it’s not a huge gain. I think it’s when I compare myself to others and their weight loss journeys that I begin to get upset.
I guess if it bothers me that much I just need to get tired of it enough to be consistent (like I posted here months ago) and stick to making better choices all of the time.
Meanwhile, I’ll try not to let it get me down and instead I’ll just keep staying active and work on the eating less part. I know this is the comparison demon that is not a good thing at times, so I will publish this post and then let it go.
Good night and thanks for allowing me this emotional moment.