Healthy Holidays Challenge – Week 3

Posted on October 15, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Many thoughts have been going through my mind this week with regards to weight loss, but first let me get this update done for you.  I’m going to post separately about a couple sentences that threw me for an emotional loop earlier in the week…and how I was able to get some good from it after all. 
This was my week for the challenge to go a little rougher…
  1. I will exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes, 4-5 days a week.  Done.  And yesterday I had a great workout wherein I felt more hopeful about this journey than I have in a very long time.  I was all motivated all by myself.  😀
  2. I will track my food at least 6 days a week.  Um… no.  I think I tracked 100% of only 4 days.  Last weekend was our weekend at the State Fair and the football game (which we won — Woo Hoo!!) and I was already in negative points for the week.  So, I didn’t track all weekend and can’t remember if I tracked Monday or not.  My weigh-in is Monday morning, so since I was in the negative by Saturday morning I decided not to take the time to track every bite I ate at the fair.  Had I actually left some points for the weekend I would’ve just to see where I ended up, but by that morning I didn’t care to worry about it anymore.  
  3. I will drink at least 32 ounces of pure water a day.  Only part of the time.  I drink a lot of liquid, but earlier in the week I found myself having more diet soda than actual water.  Seeing as how it was TOM I wasn’t too worried about it, and I’ve been right back on track as the week came to a close. 
  4. I will enjoy the holidays, but not forget my new ending in life includes making the best choice for ME — whether that’s having something in moderation or saying no.  Done.  I was up 2 lbs at my weigh-in Monday morning.  I know I blew it big time the week before and when I realized my cycle was starting it explained all the extra crazy cravings and subsequent eating.  However, even though I didn’t save extra points up for the State Fair, like I’d hoped to, I went ahead and enjoyed myself.  

I shared everything I had and did not eat to stuffed.  I was pleasantly satisfied when we made our way home that evening and enjoyed myself immensely.  This is the “best choice for me” that I needed to make and not feel badly about.   And I’m pleased with it.  


This challenge continues to inspire me to do better and I’m grateful to all the ladies that check in weekly on Instagram and for you, Suz, in Virginia, for coming on here to check in.  I look forward to seeing how your week is going.  🙂
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A Lesson Learned from Social Media

Posted on October 15, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
To know my frustration you have to know the story.  Sorry, it will make for a long post, but I feel better [as always] giving you the full story.  My intention is not to offend with my reaction to a social media comment, and if you read to the end you’ll see there’s a happy ending. 
Weight Watchers offers a social media group “Connect” in their app that you can participate in when you are paying for their program.  People post before/after photos, random thoughts and the like.  It’s like FaceBook and Instagram combined.  People can “like” a post and/or comment.  I’m only on there on occasion since I’m very active in  blogging and on Instagram.  
But…Tuesday mid-morning I was upset and didn’t want to bombard Instagram with my WW woes.  Instead I decided to reach out to fellow WW’ers and I posted this to Connect: 

Can I just be honest for a minute? 

Yesterday I was up 2.0 lbs for my weigh-in.  I was okay with it, because I’d had a rough PMS week and was expecting a gain.

Even after talking to a fellow loser who was sharing how she doesn’t use all her points (and totally not understanding how that is possible, because I always eat my points) I was fine with my gain and confident it will come right back off.  (I also went to the state fair, ate what I wanted, and shared everything and didn’t eat til stuffed at all! [celebrating emoji]

But today I am struggling.  Just emotional.

I think I know why.  Here’s what happened after my meeting…

My son wanted Wendy’s and I thought I’d have a chicken sandwich, but decided it was probably too high in points (deceiving by being chicken, etc.)  So, I orderd the Chicken Apple Salad.

I wanted a warm burger and fries, but was trying to be good and got a salad.  I was driving and couldn’t get to checking the points safely while driving. 

A salad which was listed as 21 points!! [shocked emoji, crying profusely emoji]  I could’ve had the chicken sandwich and a small fry for 15, or just the sandwich for 8 and my WW snack crisps from home for another 2 and been just fine. 

Now, I know it’s the sugar involved in that salad.  I only used 1 packet of the dressing (they gave me 2) and I took out the bleu cheese (I don’t care for bleu cheese).  So, I calculated it for a few points less, but still … double the points for eating something I didn’t want in the first place! 

It threw my day and I’m finding myself still vexed this morning thinking I’ll never get it together.  I know this isn’t true, but I just needed to vent. 

I did go workout this morning and I will do my best to get through today..and then through tomorrow.

Thanks for listening.  #itsmyparty #sometimesitshard

Two people commented as I had hoped — encouraging me that this is not about perfection, but progress and at least I had good intentions.  
And two people gave advice. 
I didn’t ask for advice.  And I found myself getting offended at what what said.  
One of them suggested I sit and figure out points for all the fast food places, so I’ll be better prepared.  Um yea…I know that.  I’m not new to this rodeo.  I usually check everything before I go, but I didn’t have that chance this time. 
The other said this, and I quote, 

“It’s happened to me too.  So, I try to check the points before ordering.  I am amazed at what my choices should be if I am committed to the program.  I am committed.  So I check first to not be disappointed.”

Um… okay.  So, I’m not committed if I didn’t check the points before??
Yeah, I was a little upset at that comment.  It nagged at me for a good 24 hours.  
Really?!  
First of all, you don’t know me….I’m a name and profile on social media who needed to vent about a situation. 
Secondly, I made it clear I needed to vent and for you to tell me when you’re committed you do x, y or z and then add in “I am committed.” just made me feel like I must not be committed to this because I didn’t do what you do. 
I wanted to get back on and reply to that last comment in defense of myself.  Instead, I decided to thank the people that were encouraging and then I decided I need to be careful how I comment.  
Then I tucked away the lesson of not giving advice when I’m not asked for it.  I realized that I may think I’m encouraging someone when I tell them what I should do, but I have to be careful or it may come as a put down because they did not do that … or at least don’t say, “Because I am committed.” 
Unfortunately I couldn’t let it go.  Her comment got under my skin.  It made me think. 
Into the next day I began to really think about whether I was committed or not.  I decided to see if there was any meat out of that comment that could be beneficial for my health.
Truth be told I can be better committed to this losing weight thing.  
Do I think I am not committed because of what happened at Wendy’s on Monday?  No. 
Do I think the comment was appropriate for what I posted?  Not really.
Do I think the lady had a good point?  Yes.  As much as it pains me to say so….yeah.  When I am committed I plan ahead and I stop and think about what I am doing.  
So, for as much as her comment came across as self righteous to me, I was able to glean some truth out of it and apply it to my life.  I was also able to see how some “wisdom” can come across wrong and I reminded myself to be careful with the words I speak. 
Thanks for letting me share.  
Once I worked through this situation I was actually surprised how much better my week went.  The post and comment(s) were probably meant to happen all along.  And I guess I can now say I’m glad for it.  🙂
End Note:  I double checked the points on that salad later and I think the app has it slightly higher than it really is.  Even with the roasted pecans, which mine didn’t have, it came out around 16 points.  So, maybe I got upset for no good reason.  Who knows… LOL 😛
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Healthy Holidays Challenge – Check In #2

Posted on October 7, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
I was an OU wife for 4 years and now I’m an OU mom.
Whew!  What a busy day I’ve had.  One of my daughters is home for the weekend and we enjoyed lunch after she got here and then chatting has happened between this and that.  
But here I am and here is my check-in report for this past week: 
  1. I will exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes, 4-5 days a week.  4 days done!  No exercise last Saturday, but I did get 4 solid days done this week.  I’d like to say I might do something tomorrow, but it’s the Red River Rivalry game tomorrow and I can only promise enjoying the day with my family cheering our Sooners on. 
  2. I will track my food at least 6 days a week.  Done.  Barely.  I almost didn’t want to track one day after seeing a hot fudge sundae I was about to eat was 27 points.  What the?!?!  But I committed to tracking everything, so I tracked it and went on.  
  3. I will drink at least 32 ounces of pure water a day.  Done.  Knowing this is one of my goals has made me consciously make sure to get my water in….especially on Sundays.  🙂  
  4. I will enjoy the holidays, but not forget my new ending in life includes making the best choice for ME — whether that’s having something in moderation or saying no.  Earlier this week I had a rough day.  Not the rough day I blogged about, but a different one.  Actually, it was simply a rough afternoon…and it’s the day I had the sundae.  I went to bed feeling emotionally awful, but the good news is I woke up fine and I didn’t allow it to push me to throw the week to the wind.  There’s a good chance I won’t see a loss on Monday, but I’m okay with that.  
How was your week? 
Even if you’re not following along formally in the challenge feel free to share how things are going with Halloween candy and fall baking in full swing.  
I am going to go get myself ready for the high school football game tonight.  We had a lovely rain this morning and it feels chilly and cold out right now — just like an autumn evening should in my book.  🙂
And yeah…we’re just a little excited about the game and proud supporters
of our Sooners!!  😀
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My Emotions Didn’t Stop Me

Posted on October 5, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Monday morning I woke up in a bit of an emotional mess.  It was the kind of mess that made me want to drop my son off at school and return home to cry and pray through it.  I went to bed with it and was sad that it was still there when I woke up.  Ugh. 
Instead of giving in to my emotional distress I dressed for the gym, took my son to school and told myself I was going to exercise — I just had to walk for 30 minutes, but I had to do something.
Why didn’t I allow myself a break?  
I know that is necessary sometimes, but as I get back into the groove of losing the 35 pounds I have gained I am trying to see where I made mistakes and learn from them. 
One mistake I believe I made was when times were legitimately rough and stressful I chose to just get through my days and not exercise.  It wasn’t always that I couldn’t get away for a 30 minute walk, but more like I fell into a place where if I couldn’t get to my class of hard core exercise, or get myself to go for a run I wouldn’t do anything.  
I recently told a friend I wonder what would’ve happened if someone would’ve encouraged me to get just a nice 30-minute walk in. 
Or what if I would’ve given myself permission to simply go for a walk when I didn’t feel like I could perform [current heavy duty exercise regimen]? 
Well, I give myself that permission now.  And I encouraged myself to simply get that walk done so as to keep the place of exercise in my daily routine. 
It wasn’t easy.  I had tears even as I pulled up to the Y, but I got on the treadmill, started walking briskly and got it done.  It felt good, and interestingly enough, the advice I was so terribly wishing I could ask my mother (who passed away 2 1/2 years ago) was sort of touched on through a podcast I was listening to.  
So, not only did I feel better for having got my exercise in, but I was encouraged through a randomly selected podcast where two sentences spoke exactly to what I was stressed about.
Victory!
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Healthy Holidays Challenge … CheckIn #1

Posted on September 30, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
This first week of the Healthy Holidays Challenge has been great!  The majority of the participants are on Instagram and there are some great goals posted.  

As for my goals…here’s how my week went:
(For those who haven’t followed me during a challenge before, I like to color code my update like street lights, red for no, yellow for kinda, and green for yes.  I’m visual like that. 🙂 ) 
  1. I will exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes, 4-5 days a week.  4 days done!  I might even get a 5th day in tomorrow.  
  2. I will track my food at least 6 days a week.  This week has been a little harder for me to reign in my “extras”, but I have tracked everything.  
  3. I will drink at least 32 ounces of pure water a day.  Done.  Knowing this is one of my goals has made me consciously make sure to get my water in.  
  4. I will enjoy the holidays, but not forget my new ending in life includes making the best choice for ME — whether that’s having something in moderation or saying no.  This week doing what was best for me started with setting the goals I needed to get through the holidays and possibly still see a loss on the scale, or at least not see a gain.  I don’t encourage striving for weight loss during the holidays, which is why I didn’t set it as an actual goal, but I know I do hope to weigh less on January 1st than I do now.  I set goals I needed and I no longer feel upset about it.  1 pt for Team Leah@My New Ending! 
I want to follow up my update with a few thoughts.  
Short Story: 
I asked Instagramers why they keep fighting for their health and it really made me think about why I do.  It’s frustrating, but I was reminded again that when my health is in a better place it’s a sign my mental and emotional selves are in better places.  Weight loss brought much more change to my life than buying smaller clothes.  And that’s why I keep coming back to fight to do better.  (Why couldn’t I have summed it up like that the other day…hmmm… lol)
Long Story:
During each week I plan on posting a thought to inspire, encourage or challenge everyone on their journey.  This week I posted this: 
Only a few actually replied and many “liked”.  Regardless of whether or not people replied, I hope it made them think.  I know it made me think. 
Sometimes I get very frustrated and wonder why I care about my health “so much”??  (Because that’s how some people view it, like it’s excessive concern or conceited.)  So, I decided to pick the brains of other’s and see what their responses are.  
Replies were varied, but there was a general agreement that we don’t want to go “back there”.  
It took me a good 30 minutes to figure out my real answer.  Not the pat answer I can share in a few minutes, but my real why.  The real reason deep down that makes me keep coming back to this challenge to healthier living with a desire to do better. 
I finally could sum it up like this, I was a happy overweight lady.  My weight never stopped me from making friends, joining in church and community activities or enjoying life in general.  But when my body began to ache and I knew my weight was the cause it gave me pause to seriously look at my life. 
Over the course of losing 70 pounds I realized my story is more about dealing with emotional struggles than simply calories in versus calories out.  I just felt like “that” — being thin — was for “them”, along with having lots of money, etc. etc.  It was my lot in life.
And to some extent that is true.  My genetics will never allow me to eat whatever and however much I want. 
But as I began to lose weight I realized I was capable of something more and that I didn’t have to turn to food all the time.  I learned when the scale is going up it’s a sign there is something else going on inside.  
I’ve learned whether I’m having too much fun to care or I’m too stressed out to care I need to be aware and not throw my health and better habits to the wayside.  I’ve learned I’m capable of being aware and enjoying life while eating better and stay active.  And I feel better all around when I do.  
So, why do I care so much?  
Why did I start this challenge? 
Why do I try and share my story with others? 
Because I never thought I deserved anything different, but I was dead wrong.  And if I can help someone else see that they don’t have to be content with “less than” and they can have a new ending in their life, then I will.  And on the flip side, if I can help somenoe realize that they NEED to care a little or it will come to bite them in the butt later, I will do that too.
This new ending I’ve chosen for my life is hard work at times, but it is some of the most rewarding work I’ve ever done.  So, as always… I will never give up trying. 
Have a great weekend everyone!
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This Kid Has Inspired Me

Posted on September 29, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Enjoying National Coffee Day today!
This is my son.  He has just turned 16 and I’ll never forget just over a month ago when we were ordering Sonic slushes for the family and he declined.
What?
“How am I supposed to enjoy my treat if he doesn’t eat one?”, I thought to myself.  I think I even commented to him, half joking and deep down knowing he was doing better with his healthier eating than I was. 
And I was convicted. 
I didn’t start losing weight to “be a better mom” like many others do, but I have noticed that my change in eating habits and weight loss have been noticed by my kids.  
When my son began to be a bit vexed about getting a little heavy I encouraged him to eat only when hungry and stop when he’s satisfied.  I also encouraged him to stay active.  
He had a bad ski accident 2 1/2 years ago that messed up his knee and hasn’t been able to play organized sports since then, but as the manager of the high school football team he has full access to the gym daily.
On his own he began cutting out extra desserts, eating smaller portions and making sure to exercise to the best of his ability.  He is now able to run a mile and works on that and his weights 5 days a week. 
And I’m so proud of him.  I told him he’s one of the biggest reasons I was inspired to get with the program in recent weeks.  
Now instead of feeling bad for having a treat when he won’t we enjoy talking about the treats we do enjoy once in a while and about how much better we feel when we skip the unnecessary extras.  
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Pre-Meeting Panic Thoughts

Posted on September 29, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Since going back to Weight Watchers I’ve been weighing in on Monday mornings and my routine has been exactly the same every Monday morning. 
  1. Take my son to school.
  2. Come home and do devotions, drinking a cup of coffee and having my breakfast protein bar.
  3. Get dressed, in the same outfit every week, and go to the meeting. 

Well, I’m trying to make it a habit to go to the gym right after taking my son to school at least 4 mornings a week.  Often on Mondays I would go exercise after my meeting before going home again;  or I would skip my workout so I could go straight to running errands before returning home. 
This week I decided to change it up and get my workout done before the meeting so I could shower and be ready to run errands afterwards AND not have to skip exercise.  (I hope that makes sense..)
And let me tell you… it took me a few minutes to decide if I’d be okay exercising and showering before my weigh-in, because..
…What if my muscles swell up from exercising [and it makes me weigh more]?
or
…What if my hair is halfway damp [and it makes me weigh more]? 
It was pathetic, but the slight panic was so real also.  
I finally opted for going ahead with the exercise.  I decided to not worry too much about what the scale said and make this my new morning habit.  If it had an effect on the scale, then so be it, but it would even out over the coming weeks. 
Of course, my week had gone well and getting in a workout and shower prior to weighing didn’t make me gain weight.  My prior week’s worth showed up as a 2.8 lb. loss.  
All was fine.  
Before the meeting started I just sat there grinning to myself about how paranoid I was about changing my pre-meeting routine.  
Sometimes those little negative thoughts can be so paralyzing, and I’m grateful I got over it and got the exercise done.  We had a beautiful autumn day and after my WW meeting I loved running my errands and knowing my workout was already done.  
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Here We Go! – Healthy Holidays Challenge 2016!! (and why I am hostessing this)

Posted on September 23, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Today marks the beginning of the last 100 days of the year and you know what that means around here… the beginning of the Healthy Holidays Challenge 2016!  Woo Hoo! 
As of a few minutes ago there are now 14 of us signed up for this challenge.  I’m pleased.  It’s a little nerve wrecking for me, because I personally know at least half of them.  [insert scared eyes emoji] (I need to figure out where those are for blogs??)
I have no problem sharing my story with perfect strangers, but when people I know or people who know people I know start finding out about my “secret life with weight issues” I get a little nervous.  
I know I can’t be the only one who feels like that, but I do. 
Those as slightly embarrassed as I get I also get excited, because I haven’t given up.  
There’s no need to be ashamed or even embarrassed, because my story hasn’t ended.  It’s had bumps in the road, but it’s not over.  It’s become something I’m passionate about, because if I can change anyone can and that’s the message I try and share. 
My desire to share this message is why I decided to hostess this challenge and it’s what helped me post this photo comparison to Instagram this week.  My type A personality likes to follow rules and be honest, so I decided I would show everyone exactly where I’m at.  If they are going to follow me on a challenge then they deserve to know I’m honest and I’m right there with them on this journey. 
It was hard. 
I didn’t like showing that I’m not the girl in the middle photo anymore.  This is silly since most people already know that.  However, it’s one thing to have everyone know, and even to know yourself, it’s another thing to actually admit to it and be okay with it.
Only really in the last week or two have I finally come to a place where I am okay with the 35-pound gain I’m carrying.  I’m finally able to see that these past 2 1/2 years back have taught me a few things about myself and how I handle stress.  
Funny, but I’m ultimately coming to a place where I am okay with the fact that we will always keep learning as we age.  I didn’t realize how hard I fought with being a perfectionist until I faced some struggles and couldn’t grasp the fact that “at least I am learning it now”.   
Before I go on with that thought, suffice it to say I’m okay with that now.  I’m beginning to feel at peace with what I’ve gone through, that my way of handling things was how I handle things and whether it was the best way to handle it or not it’s okay.  
I’ve taken note and I’ll keep working on it.  
And I will continue to strive to inspire others with my journey and encourage them not to give up on their health during busy seasons or stressful times.  Thus, the challenge.  
But one more thing… even if the challenge ended today, the response I’ve had to my honesty about where I’m at has been so inspiring back to myself.  I’m challenged to be a hostess/leader that this group deserves, and I am looking forward to sticking to my own goals and seeing what this season brings to all of us. 
Have a good weekend folks!  Thanks for stopping by and thanks for indulging me in my long-winded posts.  [insert heart emoji]  Yeah…gotta go figure that emoji thing out… LOL  😛
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I Had to Ignore the Scale

Posted on September 20, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Sunday as I was getting ready for church I was feeling slim.  No bloating going on and just generally feeling good about getting regular exercise in all week and not eating ’til I felt stuffed at any meal.  
Monday morning I felt pretty much the same.  I hadn’t tracked my food all week, so I really didn’t know if I’d done well on the food front, but I felt like I’d had a good week. 
Then I stepped on the scale at my Weight Watchers meeting.  
+1.4 lbs.
What?! 
Hhmm… I know I had a little too much food some days, point wise, but I didn’t expect a gain after getting regular exercise in.  I even started using weights. 
Oh yeah.  I started using weights.  [lightbulb]
As I gathered up my things and headed to my seat I made a choice.  I chose to ignore the scale and instead be grateful for what I did well. 
I decided I would fix what needed fixing (I need to track consistently again.) and I would keep exercising like I have been.  My exercise has been cardio in a “heart rate zone” for 30 minutes at a time — nothing drastic — and I did start adding in weights 3 days a week.   
It wasn’t easy to let go of that frustrating “gain”, but I know better.  I’ve been at this long enough to know exercise isn’t out to hurt me and I know the benefits will eventually show up on the scale.  
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Healthy Holidays 2016 Sign-Up

Posted on September 14, 2016 by Leah@MyNewEnding
This is the official blog sign-up for the Healthy Holidays Challenge being hosted by myself, Leah, of “My New Ending”.  🙂 
Information and guidelines for this challenge are on this post:  Introducing … Healthy Holidays Challenge 2016.  There are a few guidelines since there will be a drawing for a prize box at the end of the challenge.  
If you have signed up on my Instagram account (@mynewnending) you do not have to set your goals here, but you may if you’d like.  I’ll have check-in posts every Friday, beginning September 23, both here and on Instagram.  
My goals this season are as follows: 

  1. I will exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes, 4-5 days a week.  No specific type, just something intentional that gets my blood moving.  
  2. I will track my food at least 6 days a week.  I am currently following Weight Watchers to help me stick to some boundaries and get this extra weight back off.  However, I originally lost 70 pounds by learning to eat better and eat less of higher calorie foods.  No matter what I ate I just tracked it, and that’s my goal for this season.  No matter if I’m over my points (calories) I will track it.  
  3. I will drink at least 32 ounces of pure water a day.  I LOVE coffee, and even hot tea in the winter, and I can easily get sidetracked by diet sodas, but I’ve been feeling the lack of water hydration lately.  So, this goal needs to be set.  I have a 32-ounce water bottle I love to use and my goal is to empty it at least once daily.  
  4. I will enjoy the holidays, but not forget my new ending in life includes making the best choice for ME — whether that’s having something in moderation or saying no.  Holidays are emotional times and I need to remember to do what’s best for me;  and not fall into people-pleasing mode.
The more I think about it, the last goal is probably the most important for me.  I have thoughts I’d like to share another time about why that is so important.  
If you’re unsure about what goals to set, or think any goal will seem crazy to someone else…well, check out my previous post on how nervous I was about the goals I set –  Setting My Challenge Goals. 

But if you’re ready, comment below and let me know if you’d like to join the challenge and what your goal(s) are for this holiday season. 
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