Small Victories

Okay, I can’t let it go, so I have to post about it. Two things…

Another few pieces of clothing that I haven’t worn in over six months fit again. Woo Hoo!!!
…AND…
Sunday we went to Golden Corral for lunch. This is a buffet and I’ve actually been really good about not overeating there the few times we’ve gone the past couple of months. I just eat until satisfied and then stop. But this Sunday while I was perusing the choices I skipped the mashed potatoes and gravy and had steamed cauliflower instead. I also only ate half of a roll with my meal. I also (it’s getting better) served myself a small serving of a chocolate gooey dessert, but gave half of it to my daughter and a bite to my husband. I did have a bite of my son’s mashed potatoes with gravy, but that was it on the potatoes.
GO ME!!!!!!! No one at my table probably noticed these little things, but I was so proud of myself. As I’ve said before, “IT’S CLICKING!” Finally…. .giggle….
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My Thoughts On Goal Weights

As I said yesterday I was intrigued when reading Diane’s blog post titled “Do You Set A Goal Weight?” What got me thinking the most was that she never did. She just started losing weight and then kept on going until she felt comfortable with where she had ended up. I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that they never set a goal weight, so it made me think. Why do we set goals?
She suggested that our nature is to be goal oriented, set higher goals to constantly better ourselves. That makes sense. Maybe it’s also because we want to see a light at the end of our proverbial tunnel. If we have a goal in mind, then we know that someday this hard work will be over with. (wow…where did THAT come from??)
Maybe that’s how we I think. This weight loss journey is a struggle, but if we have a goal and we reach it then we feel the struggle will be over. That’s interesting though because these are life changes that hopefully will stay with us far beyond reaching that goal weight and keep us from ever having to work at losing weight again.
Okay, one more quick thought about goal weights.
I commented on her blog how we are different in that I have set a goal weight and she never did. However, I take it back. When I first decided that I was going to make small changes to lose some of this excess weight my goal was, “To lose enough weight by May 2011 so that I can buy a dress for my husband’s graduation from dental school and it WILL NOT be in the plus sizes section of the store.”
That was it. No numbers, just anything below “PLUS” and I gave myself two years to do it. I knew that was reachable, and because it was I wasn’t scared to try and lose weight one more time.
In fact, I could only commit to making a few small changes and starting to walk a few times a week. Slowly but surely I began believing that I could really become the thin woman I felt was hiding inside of me. Now, almost four months later I know I will reach that original goal and most likely pass it.
If your curious as to whether or not I ever did set numeric goals, here’s what I posted on Diane’s blog:

My small goals are (A) 199 (just to break 200), then (B) 170 (what I weighed when I got married and a weight I have been down to only once since then) and finally my tentative lowest weight goal is 140.

I figured out this final number by looking at healthy weight ranges on various sites. I trust the Weight Watchers site and this is 6 pounds under the highest healthy weight they show for my age (33) and height (5′4″). I figure that gives me about 5 pounds to play with.

However, if I get to 150 (approx.) and am comfortable and can’t seem to lose more with starving/over exercising myself, then I’ll stop there. Or…(I really can’t imagine this now) if I get to 140 and I’m not feeling like that’s where I should stop, then I’ll go down a little more. Since I haven’t weighed near that since high school I can’t even think that far ahead yet.

So, I said all that to say this. … Just kidding…


So, yes I have a numeric goal in my mind, but really…as long as I make that original goal of buying my “graduation” dress in the “regular” department then I’ll make myself be happy. In fact, as I finish up writing this post I’m wondering if I should let go of my goal weight and just push on to get smaller and smaller until I find the right, healthy weight for me.


Okay, I really think I also have a goal because I’m scared I’ll get lazy and stop short of it just because I’m too “tired” to try anymore.


That’s it. That’s about as honest as I can get on this subject. Sorry for the long post, but I think I covered all my thoughts and feelings now. 🙂 (This will be an interesting one to look back up in a year and see if my thoughts/feelings have changed.)


Have a great day everyone!

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Goal Weights

Diane wrote a post today on setting a goal weight that got me to thinking. I’ll have to write more about it later, but I find myself wondering, “Why do we feel the need to set a goal weight?” I haven’t ever really met a final goal weight in my life, so why would I set one now? Is it because now I know deep inside that I’m determined to lose this weight once and for all?

Hhhhm….
I’ll take any comments you’d like to offer and I’ll write more on it tomorrow.
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Consistency

Merriam-Webster gives the definition for consistent as ” …marked by harmony, regularity, or steady continuity : free from variation or contradiction …” among other things.


As I was going about my day yesterday I kept thinking about what needs to change for me to continue down my weight loss journey at a slightly faster more regular pace. The one thing I kept coming back to is consistency.

I need to be more consistent in keeping with my good eating habits and exercise. Well, actually the exercise isn’t the problem. I get that in regularly, though maybe not as many days as some people, but it works for me. It’s my eating that doesn’t stay consistent.

In all honesty I have days that I do really good and then I always have days that I eat too much. I know that I’m doing this, but it’s like I just hope that it will even out for the week and I’ll see maybe a 0.5 – 1.0 lb loss. Well, you can’t have three days of eating really good and then two of eating really bad and then two more of so-so eating and hope to lose weight very quickly. It’s probably why I’m always so nervous on Saturday mornings when I weigh in. I know I haven’t eaten well consistently through the week and by Saturday I’m afraid that it’s going to show on the scale and then I’ll have to post about it and feel awful.

Don’t get me wrong, I still truly do believe in taking baby steps, but I’m seeing myself fall into a pattern that I followed about nine years ago when trying to lose post-pregnancy weight (and then some). Back then I lost about 40 pounds over the course of two years. Now I agree, that a loss over two years is better than a gain. However (long dramatic pause) during that same time a friend of mine lost 60 pounds in about 6-8 months.

The difference? She was consistent. I wasn’t. She put her mind to it and lost weight. I put my mind to it on days I felt like it and then didn’t worry about it on other days. So, it took me a lot longer and I never reached my goal. Of course, then I was so happy to weigh what I weighed when I got married that I didn’t care about a healthy goal weight, but that’s another story.

Anyway, I don’t want to fall into that same pattern. I intend on making my goal weight this time. I’ve set myself a time to lose it that gives me plenty of time to fall off the wagon, have bad days, learn what works best for me, etc. etc., but I do not want to use this large time frame as an excuse not to stick with the program.

To help me stay more consistent I’m going to keep a food journal for at least the next month. Yes, I know I mentioned that I was already doing this, but I stopped a few weeks ago. SparkPeople is great, but I’m going to handwrite in a weight loss journal I have already started. I want to be able to look over each week and see what worked and what didn’t.

This hasn’t been easy for me as I have fought “healthy” eating with everything in me sometimes and I am slowly changing some lifelong bad habits. I think now it’s time to get some consistency in my plan and try my best to have good weeks instead of just a few good days per week.
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Only 2.5 lbs.

As I posted my monthly pictures last night I realized that I have lost only 2.5 pounds over this past month. That was a real eye-opener for me. I knew it had been a bit rough and I had ups and downs, but I didn’t realize just how bad it really was.

So, tonight I read over all of my weigh-in posts from the past month. Hhhmm….. There is lots to think about, but let’s keep it short tonight and just say that I don’t plan on having another 2-3 lb weight loss for a month. The first month I wasn’t bummed at all, because I was just getting my activity in order. Then I did great, got on the ball about my food and lost 9 more poundsthe second month and then…. hhhmm… Maybe too much pondering about weight loss and not enough action?
Or was this a month of learning for me? Learning what didn’t work and what really does work?
I’m not really sure, but I know that I need to step it up. Get things in gear. I know I’m not in a rush to lose the weight, but that’s no excuse for laziness and to be honest, YES I’m a little vexed with myself right now.
It’s been a good week and a good weekend, for that matter, so I’ll just keep going. I just hope I can get with the program so I don’t have to see such a small loss over the next month. *sigh* Giving up is not an option for me.
G’nite!
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Out of the mouth of Babes


During this evening’s church service my “older” twin daughter was leaning on me with her head on my shoulder when she suddenly reaches up to my ear and whispers, “Mom, I don’t know if I want you to get skinnier, because you’re so cushioney!”

I just started to giggle and shared that comment with my husband. I reassured her that I’d probably never get too skinny to not have any cushion for her. 🙂
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Month Three Pics

I took my progression pictures for month 3. Here’s the link for those who can access it.

I’m going to post later on my feelings upon realizing I’ve only lost 2.5 pounds this month…SIGH… oh well, better down than up, but it’s a real eye opener for me. Meanwhile, I’m going to go for a walk with one of my daughters now while my husband and the other two play soccer outside.
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Way to go, Chris!!!


Remember my friend, Chris, who was doing the back-to-school challenge with me? Well, she is also on of my best friends and we are losing this weight “together” even though we live in two different states now.

Her weightloss blog is private, so I told her I was going to brag about her on mine when she made great accomplishments.
Well, it’s time to brag, because Chris has lost her first 20 lbs. Woo Hoo!!! She hit – 21 pounds loss this morning.
Way to go, Chris!! I’m so glad we’re in this together!! You’re doing a great job!! 🙂
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Weigh-In … Little by Little

Today’s Weight: 216.5

Loss/Gain this week: – 1.0 lb
Total Loss So Far: -14.5 lbs.
The quote of the week at school this past week was “Nothing can be done except little by little.” by Charles Baudelaire. That pretty much sums up how I feel today. A pound is a pound and it’s another one gone from me. I’m very happy with that!
Really there’s not much more to say today. I’m about to read some blog posts and maybe I’ll get inspired to write something later, but for now I’m happy with my loss and that’s about it.
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Hindering Thoughts

Thinking during weight loss is a good thing when planning healthy meals, times to fit in exercise or how to handle an upcoming social event, etc., etc. But I find if I’m not careful, thinking can hinder me on my weight loss journey, especially when…

… I compare myself to others on their weight loss journey.
… I think about where I could be in a year, or even six months. If I don’t make this goal I will be depressed, even if I’ve lost some weight, because thoughts of failure try to take hold of my mind.
… I think about how I’ve lost and gained this weight so many times and how if I would’ve only kept it off five years ago I wouldn’t be going through this struggle now.
… I think about a bad choice so long that I’m depressed and think the weight will never come off and I’ll never be able to control myself with food.
The list could go on and on. Some may not relate to this at all, but I know for myself that my own thoughts can be my very own worst enemy.
I know there will be rough days, bad choices made, but hindering thoughts will do nothing to help me reach my weight loss goals. So, instead of giving in to them and letting them ruin my days I will press on to keep the thoughts positive and just keep going to the best of my ability.
P.S. Feel free to share any thoughts you might battle and how you overcome them. 🙂
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