We had chinese food Saturday night for dinner and this was my “fortune” in the fortune cookie. My husband and I got a nice grin out of it, seeing that it could fit my weight loss journey. 🙂
Success
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Post Weigh-In Friday
So, today was a CRAZY day in the class I was subbing. CRAZY. It was picture day and I think the change in schedule had everyone thinking it wasn’t regular school. Anyway, I was talking to a teacher’s aide and I told her, “Well, I did have one good piece of news today.”
She says, “What?” and I told her that I’ve lost 19.5 pounds.
“What are you doing?!?!?”, she exclaimed and we began to talk about not just starting diets, but taking steps toward permanent changes.
I had talked to her about possibly trying to lose some weight at the end of the year last spring. It was a good feeling to actually be talking about it again and have a little something to show for all my talk. 🙂
Also…. on another subject.
After church tonight my husband told me to stop and get the kids something to eat. They requested McDonald’s and we drove through. I didn’t order anything for me.
When I got home I just had maybe half of a small french fry worth of fries and then 2 bites of his whopper and 2 of their Big Macs. It was just enough to get a taste.
Like at the Mexican Food potluck they had at school today. I had about two bites of a few different things. I did splurge on ONE dessert that was super delicious and worth every single morsel. And I didn’t overeat. It was a great feeling!!! Especially when I saw some others eating three different desserts and I knew I wasn’t one of them.
Oh… one more thing… and I’ll end with this.
I told my MIL tonight about my loss. I jokingly said, “Now you’ll never let me eat!” She grinned while shaking her head “No.” and pointed her finger down. Who would’ve ever thought that she’d help me in my weight loss. Not me.
I guess that’s enough for one night. I’m exhausted and need to sleep and get energy for a busy day tomorrow!
G’nite!
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Weigh-In … Back In The Right Direction
Today’s Weight: 211.5
Loss/Gain: -4.0 lbs.
Total Loss So Far: -19.5
Yes, I am thrilled! I worked a little harder this week and not only did I lose the two pounds I gained last week, but two more on top of that. Yippee!! I am now half a pound away from twenty pounds lost.
Oh, I can smell it, it’s so close!
A few things I did different this week were:
-I didn’t eat late at night, except a handful of grapes one night. I just told myself, “No.” and then I would stop and see if I was really hungry, which I wasn’t. We’ve had a week of revival services and it’s hard not to come home from church wanting a snack before bed, but I did it. 🙂
-I also ate small portions at dinner and made myself stop and realize that I was satisfied, though I felt FAR from full. This hasn’t been easy. I have eaten homemade tortillas, but less than last week.
– I also haven’t had anything sweet in a few days. I gave the cupcake offered to me at school by a student the other day to my daughter. Plus, I had taken a Snickers snack size candy to a teacher for helping me out (she requested chocolate in exchange for the help) and found I grabbed two instead of one. I was going to eat the second one myself, but I decided to just give it to her later. I knew I didn’t need it, I didn’t really want it and I decided that I need to save my sweet treats for those moments when I really, really want them.
So, those are three things that I can think of off the top of my head that I did differently this week. And they worked! Have a great Friday everyone. :o)
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The Hot 100 – Day 1
I, Leah Gonzalez, am going to accept this challenge and do my best to reach the goals that I have set for myself.
I’ve decided to set up my goals by month. This gives me a little something to look forward to each month. My goals are also going to be scale-based and emotional-based each month.
As of today I have lost 15.5 pounds over the past four months. This is better than the 20-pound gain I saw six months prior to that, but I feel it’s time to step things up a bit. I will implement good, regular exercise and adjust my eating to help me reach these goals.
So, here goes!
Hot 100 Goals for October:
Scale Goal: See any kind of a weight loss by the time my mother-in-law leaves, which should be by the end of this month.
Emotional Goal: Not get offended when my mother-in-law offers a comment she thinks will help me with my “diet”. She hasn’t made more than maybe two in a week, but I found myself getting angry right away. Yet, when I thought more on it…she was right. Ouch.
Hot 100 Goals for November:
Scale Goal: Reach my first scale goal of 199 by Thanksgiving. That is losing 15 pounds between now and then.
Emotional Goal: Learn how to stay on track while my mother visits the week of Thanksgiving and not feel bad about it. I tend to not want to make her feel bad with my losing weight. I’ve told her this and she is most encouraging, but it’s still rough for me.
Hot 100 Goals for December:
Scale Goal: Lose at least 5 pounds during December, also known as the highest weight-gain season of the year and baking time!!!
Emotional Goal: Enjoy the holidays without feeling obligated to eat or taste everything. Learn that I don’t have to feel like I’m missing out or deprived just because I choose to say no to licking the batter spoon every time or eating 3 cookies every time I bake.
My twin daughters’ birthday is December 31st. So I hope to reach these goals and not only celebrate their birth that day, but a new leg in my journey towards a healthier, happier ending.
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I’m Accepting the Hot 100 Challenge
Despite my fear of failure challenges I have decided to join this challenge. Two reasons:
1. I’m pretty sure I’ve only seen a maintain this month and I think it’s time to step things up a notch. Baby steps, more like crawling for me, were good the first four months, but it’s time for this baby to start learning how to walk.
2. I want to face a few fears and not use the phrase “baby steps” as an excuse not to push myself a little bit.
So, I talked it over with my husband, told him the goals I was thinking about and he brought out a good point about how to set my goals for this challenge. I had one goal for each section, weight loss, exercise and eating. He mentioned that the exercise and eating were good goals in and of themselves and the weight loss goal was good by itself, but one might not necessarily mean the other will happen. He suggested I pick one group or the other as my goal and whatever I do to reach that goal will probably end up affecting the other group.
I hope this makes sense. I’m trying to keep it short here.
So, now when you read the next post you’ll understand how I got to my decision to accept the challenge. 🙂
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Hot 100 Challenge
I have this fear of doing any weightloss challenges, so I don’t do them myself. I’m working through this, but in the meantime I thought I’d post about a challenge that some of you might be interested in.
Steve, at logmyloss.com, is doing a “Hot 100 – Going Out With A Bang” Challenge for the last 100 days of 2009. Check it out!
I’ll let you know by Wednesday if I decide to do this or not.
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Stopping At Satisfied
Well, since my mother-in-law has been here – one week – my husband has also put a few pounds on. He mentioned that he’s also going to have to be careful about not eating too much of her yummy food.
Today at lunch he mentioned, “You know, we’ve gotten so used to eating until we’re full that we don’t really know how to stop at just being satisfied.”
That is so true!! It’s tough eating only until you’re satisfied and not more. It takes self control to stop and realize that you’ve really had enough, even if you don’t feel stuffed and unable to fit more food in. Stopping when you feel like you can still fit more food in goes against the overweight eater’s way of eating at mealtimes.
The only other time I lost a great amount of weight as an adult was by eating until satisfied and then not eating again until I was truly hungry. It was hard, but I learned to do it.
This is something that I have to learn again, and this month that my mother-in-law is visiting is probably a good time to work on it. 🙂 So, here’s to stopping when satisfied and hopefully a good week!
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Inspiring Poster
I saw this poster in a 4th grade classroom yesterday and it inspired me. I hope it inspires you a bit too.
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No Discipline Or No Desire?
Diane at Fit To The Finish wrote an article this past week about all the reasons she used to have for not sticking to a diet. As I read her article I began to think on my past dieting attempts. I never stuck to diets or maintaining weight after a large loss for various reasons which usually led to me, myself and I. I always thought it was just my lack of discipline, but now I wonder if it wasn’t necessarily a lack of discipline as much as a lack of desire to be disciplined.
You see, I have always thought I was so weak to stick with anything for a long period of time. I know that is true in part, but I also know that most of my weight loss attempts were because I was frustrated with how fat I was, how awful I looked in clothing and how thin my friends were. Out of frustration I would start a diet knowing that if I followed the plan I would see results. However, dieting was always a temporary means to reach a thin end. As far as I can remember I followed diets, was proud when I stuck to it and loss weight, hated myself when I didn’t, and always I dreamed of the day when I would be thin and could go back to eating as I wanted.
Often I had the discipline for a short time to see some results, but I don’t think I had the true, deep down desire to see the right kind of change. I think that may have been a lot of why I never kept the weight off, or lost very much to begin with.
There was only one time that I truly desired to change and I lost 40 pounds over two years. Then some factors came into play and I didn’t know how to handle it all and the weight crept back on. Another story for another time.
After that attempt and the 50 pounds I put back on I tried dieting again, but only out of frustration and not with a desire to really change..only a desire to be thinner.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’ve had to learn that, yes, discipline is necessary to make the changes that will bring about weight loss, but more than that I had to come to a point in my life where I had the desire to be disciplined, to see a change far greater than just eating less or exercising some. I had to desire to love myself enough to do what was best for my body.
I had to desire to be disciplined, so that discipline wasn’t my enemy but my ally in the battle to lose weight. And I think this different way of thinking is making a great difference in my weight loss journey this last and final time.
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p.s.
I didn’t eat the cake for breakfast this morning.
I desperately wanted it. I’ve been enjoying my whole wheat PopTarts with coffee for breakfast, but I ran out yesterday and nothing has sounded good for breakfast.
After my gain I was going to just eat the cake, it didn’t seem to matter. But I didn’t eat it. I just knew deep inside that wasn’t a smart choice for breakfast.
I guess I’m not a total failure after all. 🙂
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My New Ending 