I Showed Up

Today I did not feel like exercising.  I just didn’t.  My monthly discomforts are in full force and even though I was dressed to exercise I didn’t feel like going.
But I did.
And as I sat up the things we would need for todays cycle circuit workout I thought to myself, “I showed up.”  
Just like five years ago this week I showed up.  
I was overweight, having pain in my knees and desperate to change something in my life to be in better health.  I felt like a failure at the very thought of trying to lose weight again for the umpteenth time.  
But I showed up.
I made a commitment to try.
I started this blog to track my journey.
I faced the discomfort and went for it. 
And just like today’s workout class, I’ve found myself on the other side of the attempt a successful girl.  
What started out as discomfort began to turn into something familiar and when things got tough I just took one more step in the right direction.  A few times I even pushed myself harder than normal and as I was putting away my workout equipment I felt strong.  I was reminded of where I started and how far I have come.  
May 15, 2009 I wrote that this was going to be the last time I lost weight. 
And it was.  All because I simply showed up.  
*deep grateful sigh*
Note:  There is this little voice saying, “But you’re still trying to lose some weight you gained back…” and you know what?  I know.  Because that is what maintenance is all about.  There’s a little losing and a little gaining, but having kept off as much as weight as I have and being as active as I’ve become is success in my book.  So there, little-voice-who-wants-to-keep-me-down.  *wink*grin*
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One Response to I Showed Up

  1. jesseybell says:

    Good lessons learned. One I still am struggling with immensely – if I am not feeling 100% awake, not in pain, good, etc. etc. etc. then I blow off exercises. With running I am slowly being able to get out there, mainly because I am a numbers geek and I like to be able to log in miles, but other exercise, even though I log that and occasionally log why I didn't make a schedule workout, it is still way too easy for me to blow them off.

    Yeah for showing up!

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