I think I’m beginning to feel a bit antsy lately. I want to get to walking or moving around and I still seem to have a hard time standing up straight. I still feel pulling around my middle when I try and stand straight, so I slouch a little. Standing slightly slouched causes my back to hurt and then I’m worn out pretty quick. *sigh*
On Thursday we are flying out to Arizona for my mom’s memorial service and I think knowing I need to travel is stressing me out a little now. I hate to admit something like that, but I’m not feeling “a-okay” or really even really close to that and it bothers me.
We knew the plan would be for me to probably need to use the wheelchair in the airport for walking, but going out for a little each day and seeing I can’t walk quickly or for very long is vexing me a little.
I remember reading an abdominoplasty patient will hit a day when they’ll feel like recovery is taking forever and wondering if things will ever get back to normal. Well, this weekend was kind of like that for me. I just keep reminding myself that this definitely is worth it.
Again, like I said, I think it’s the fact that I have to travel that’s kind of stressing me out. I didn’t plan to have to do anything extra for four to six weeks and then my mom’s passing kind of changed up the plan a little.
My husband and most everyone we’re going to see on our trip are aware of my surgery, so they know I won’t be the same old Leah. I know I won’t be expected to act like my normal self. I just need to keep reminding myself of that.