Today’s Weight: 168.0
At least I warned you. *BIG GRIN* If you’re not sure what I’m talking about read Wednesday’s post. TOM has arrived and the PMS cravings (and subsequent too much over indulgences) were pretty bad this month.
But it is a new day and there is hope for a loss next week.
I know this to be true, because last night I had a small battle with myself and won. The conversation went something like this:
Scenario: Working at the dining room table on a craft project in the evening.
Mind: Hhhmm…what can I have that’s sweet?
Body: What? Um, we’re not hungry and we had a few M&Ms after dinner.
Mind: [Ignoring body] I could make brownies, but that doesn’t really sound good.
Body: You’re right. Dinner didn’t even really sit well with us and we’re not really craving anything sweet.
Mind: [Trying to ignore body] Hhhmm..maybe I’ll go get ice cream. The kids are asking for some. But I do know I’m not really hungry and honestly..I’m not really craving anything sweet.
Leave house to run quick errand and decide I’m going to go by Sonic for half-price shakes. Yet, the conversation continues as I run errand.
Mind: I can have a shake if I want to. It’s that time of the month.
Body: But we really don’t feel like having one.
Mind: WHY?!?! We always want sweets.
Body: You asked to learn to listen to your body. So, listen to me…I’m full. Yes, something sweet sounds good in thought, but not in reality.
Mind: This is so weird. Darned it. I want a shake, and I think I only want to not have it so I can post tomorrow about how well I did resisting the temptation.
Body: No….you don’t want it because you know we are full and we don’t need anything else to eat. Yes, you know you’ll be proud of yourself for resisting, but the truth of the matter is you also know deep down you don’t need the shake. In fact, you also know you really, physically don’t even want it. Actually, grapes sound good — they are cold and sweet and healthier. You have some in the fridge and they sound better than a shake that is only going to fill you up and weigh you down…because you’re not even really that hungry. You’re just a little munchy.
Mind: I know. (pausing in frustrating, knowing I can’t cry because daughter is in car with me) I know. I did pray and ask God to help me listen to my body and my body is telling me grapes actually do sound better, IF I really need a cool sweet something. Gosh darn it… I do know. This is so hard sometimes, but I’m also really tired of eating just because it’s what I used to do. I always feel yucky afterwards and then the guilt comes and emotionally I’m vexed. It seems it’s easier to have the shake, but is it really?? I don’t think so.. (sigh)
**Errand is completed, we pull into Sonic and I order only 3 shakes for the kids.**
Mind: I don’t even feel sad or deprived for not ordering a shake for myself. I actually feel better about it.
Body: Thank you for listening. You’ll be so glad you did later. I’m made to help you know what we need, please trust me on this.
Mind: I’m trying.
Then I went home and had some grapes as I finished up my project. I might have eaten a couple too many, but even then I knew it was a step in the right direction because being a tad over full on grapes is nothing like being over full on a thick, sweet milkshake.
It was one small step back in the right direction, which is how this war will be won.
As new-to-me fitness blogger and professional, Bonnie Pfiester, stated perfectly in a post The Secret to Reaching Your Goal, “While goals are very important, I believe some people are so overwhelmed with the end-goal, that they forget they really only have one task today – and that is to reach TODAY’s goal.”
Last night I was able to reach the goal of listening to what my body was telling me. I didn’t feel hugely victorious, but I felt so much better than I would have had I given in to the temptation. It was like I was able to break one small brick out of a wall of old habits that seems to have been creeping back up on me lately.
So, I had victory and I will keep moving forward (and hopefully downward on the scale). I think I’m also going to print this great word art that was attached to the above quote:
Doesn’t the Bible tell us this as well? Why, yes it does.
“Take therefore no thought for the morrow, for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” Matthew 6:34
*refreshingly contented sigh*
I will take care of today, and each daily victory will lead to winning the war. 🙂
Have a good weekend and thanks for checking in!