So…last night was not so good for me. It wasn’t horrible, but I was eating too many M&Ms and had potato chips twice yesterday. I kept thinking, “You know what? I’m just going to stay here at my weight. I’m never going to be like those ladies who eat healthy and well enough to stay at a thin size.”
One common thread in the AIMS post this month I noticed is how clean and healthy they eat, pretty much all. of. the. time.
And my biggest struggle as I’ve been in the last third of my weight loss goals is that I’ll never be like that. I still like to eat too much junk too often. I enjoy healthier stuff, but I don’t reach for it naturally and I haven’t gotten the pattern set in my life where I eat it because it’s best for me, more than a couple days a week.
I find this embarrassing, but it’s been my hugest struggle. I have friends who eat cleaner because they know it’s best for them, even if they don’t always want to. Not me, and last night I had another bout of “I’ll never be like that…sigh…so I think I’ll just stay comfortable where I’m at”
But, as is mostly always the case… I knew I didn’t really mean it. And I went to bed.
I woke up a little tired and didn’t feel a whole lot better. After getting the kids off to school, reading my devotional and praying I looked up my health board on Pinterest and reminded myself…
I also did a search on “don’t give up” and found this:
Which reminded me of a great quote I found a couple months ago:
So, I’m not quitting. I know I feel better when I eat better. I know I can do this. I know I have a couple tops that are still too snug, so I HAVE to get into them. 🙂
And after going for a quick 3 mile run I am refreshed and I know…
It’s not over, because I won’t give up.