Weigh-In … I Am Not a Failure

Today’s Weight:  167.0
Loss/Gain: +2.0 
After a strict week of eating last week, and knowing I would allow some indulgence for my birthday, I was afraid of this.  However, I was at least hoping to maintain.  
The days before and after my 1-2 days of celebrating I did great.  In fact, I was super excited Tuesday night when I was right within my calorie budget.  I thought I had it in the bag.  I indulged, but I was back on track and maybe I could even squeak out another pound loss, but at least I could maintain.  
Until Wednesday night after church.  Let’s say I did have the yogurt I planned, but then ended up with much more in the way of nachos and a few M&Ms.  *sigh*  
I don’t blog what I eat on purpose.  I don’t think I can handle the criticisms that would come my way when I’m up two pounds and then people see what I’ve eaten and feel the need to explain to me that my food choices could be better.  
I know that already.  I knew that when I began trying to lose weight.  Posting my weigh-ins weekly is all the pertinent info I care to offer and it really does say it all.  When you see that two-pound gain you know that two things happened:

  1. I gained a bit back of a very strict week of eating.  (I had a feeling that might happen)
  2. I overate.
Okay, I guess I just had to get that off my chest…back to finishing up this week. 
Last night, I felt like a complete and utter failure.  I won’t go into all the gory details, but I had a moment of tears and frustration.  Then I reminded myself, “I am not a failure.  Yes, I failed this week [to follow a healthy eating plan], but I AM NOT A FAILURE.”
My husband was very supportive and gave me a big hug when he saw I’d been crying.  I had wanted to keep losing so badly, but those old habits crept in so quickly.  As we crawled into bed I told him my little saying, “I am not a failure.  I failed, but I am not a failure.”
He kind of chuckled and then said, “How much weight have you lost so far, Leah??”  
“I know…”, I sheepishly replied.  
So, after a good night’s sleep and some time in prayer this morning I know I will keep going.   I don’t want food to consume my life, in either a good way or a bad way, but I know I feel so much better when I eat right.  
As I always say…I won’t quit.  It’s not over yet.  🙂
Thanks for checking in and have a good weekend! 

About Leah@MyNewEnding

I'm a 44-year-old wife and mother who begins her day with God and coffee. When my youngest of 3 kids started college I went from a SAHM to a full-time job. I love being an attendance secretary. A lot has gone on since I started this blog in 2009, but one thing remains the same: I will not give up on my health. Join me as I share what that means for the season of life I'm in.
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2 Responses to Weigh-In … I Am Not a Failure

  1. This post reminds me of when I lost several pounds when I was sick one time and then even though I tried to do “good” the following week, I regained those pounds. It's so normal Leah and you are NOT a failure. Rather you are a total, 100 percent success! Your hubby is right – look at where you came from. You are doing great and don't let anyone (including yourself) tell you otherwise.


  2. Jeanette says:

    You are DEFINITELY not a failure. One two pound regain does not make you a failure. In the ten years since I took off the bulk of my weight, I have fluctuated up and down… sometimes trending up, sometimes down. I happen to be in a GREAT place right now, where I am maintaining or losing a little every week…. but that ebbs and flows as my life changes. As long as you stay generally on the path to healthiness and take care of your body, treat it like you love it and never give up!


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