Todays weight: 224
Loss this week: – 2.5
Total loss so far: 7 lbs.
I was so scared to weigh in this morning. I even text’d my best friend last night (who is also working on losing weight) and told her that I was not looking forward to weighing in this morning.
When I thought more about it I realized that I was scared to weigh in because stepping on that scale knowing that I’m going to post about it makes me accountable for what the scale says. If I weigh myself and don’t tell anyone what it said, then it doesn’t matter if I am making progress or not. I know this is a stem of my fear of failure that I regularly battle in my mind.
The weak side of me regretted telling anyone I was working on losing weight, but deep inside I knew it’s the accountability that I probably need to get/keep me on track. It was the “oh-well-you’re-doing-your-best-and-I-love-you-anyway” attitude with no results that got me up to 231 pounds.
Having said that I have to admit that I was thrilled!! I was hoping to be down even one pound and I was down over two. It’s working..it’s finally working!!