Perfect 10 – Update #6

Posted on February 12, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Here’s another update for the Perfect 10 Challenge. This update brings a smile to my face, because I’m reaching my first goal and that was my primary purpose in joining the challenge…to begin being a runner. 🙂


My Perfect 10 Goals Are:
  1. Complete the Couch to 5K program. Yes – I finished week six today. In fact, today I jogged for 25 minutes straight. I’m telling you it was mind over matter for a while there, but I made it through. I’m no where near the distance I should be, but the fact that I could jog for 25 minutes at an average pace of 4.2 mph is quite the accomplishment for me.


  2. Drink 6-8, 8 oz. glasses of water daily. No.


  3. Adjust my eating to see weight loss. No. And getting back to square one to rectify the issues I’m seeing I have with food. Honestly, I used to mentally mock people that would “only” commit to losing 5 lbs a month, but going through this weight loss journey has shown me that it’s nothing to laugh at. You can read my post below to see how I’m dealing with this.

As for the little tidbit on me….

I’m taking Steve’s idea to talk about travel this week. I love to travel, though I don’t do it too often. I do not get sick when on an airplane or as a passenger in a vehicle. I can fall asleep on any long trip, whether via air or car. I can read a book or work on handwork, cross stitch, crochet, etc. while in a moving vehicle (apparently many people get sick doing this).

I have been to both Canada and Mexico, but not to any other countries. I have been to the beaches on both the east coast and the west coast. I was able to go to Hawaii a few years ago and someday maybe I’ll make it to Alaska for a visit.

Someday I would love to take a train ride across the country. Maybe not across the entire US, but a train ride that would last a couple of days. My husband doesn’t like this idea, so I may have to do it with my mom or a good friend. 🙂

To sum it up, I love to travel and I hope someday to see more of our great nation and visit some other countries as well.

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Back to Square One

Posted on February 12, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding
Last night I talked with my husband about my frustration with my weight. He seemed a little confused about why I wasn’t doing well and I know it’s probably because he doesn’t see me eat much. I haven’t been pigging out on meals lately and I’m exercising four to five days a week. Then he asked when and what I was eating. I had to finally confess to him that I munch a lot between meals (when I’m not doing “good” obviously) and he just sat there.
I told him, “You know I watch “so-and-so” come to church and barely make it. They saw some great changes at the beginning, but they struggle so much. It’s like…”
He interrupts me, “Because they won’t let go of the past. That’s the problem. They wanted to get better, but they didn’t want to let go of certain things that have kept them bound to a lifestyle they were living before. “
“Yep, and that’s my problem.”
Husband: “You won’t let go? What? Of food?” (almost grinning)
“Yep.”, I reply.
We talked for a few more minutes, and I was glad to be able to open up a little more to him about this. I told him that appetite suppressants and energy stuff look so appetizing to just see the weight go quickly and regularly, but I know I have issues that go much deeper than simply not being hungry.
I know when I’m hungry and when I’m not, but it doesn’t stop me from eating. He explained that he may seem to eat a lot, but he rarely eats outside of mealtimes and I know this is true. But I’m not like that. We talked more and I told him I’ll just keep working on my issues and I’d rather spend money on good food than costly pills that won’t solve the deeper issues. He agreed, gave me a hug and was wonderful.
Today I’ve been thinking more on this issue….
I’m not tempted to go to bars, to have a cigarette or do anything along those lines when I’m bored, upset, angry or even really happy, but I am tempted to eat for all of those reasons and more that have nothing to do with true hunger.
This is what I am working through right now. It’s why I’ve chosen to follow the insights of the book Intuitive Eating. Some of you may have noticed that one of the authors of this book commented on my blog a couple of weeks ago. She suggested I go check out the audio version of the book as it has some helpful practices to go through.
This morning I did just that. I borrowed the audio CDs from my local library and I’ve listened to the first one already. I must tell you that I almost feel like I’m starting back at the beginning again. I have a lot of the ideas down, but there is so much more I have to work through.
I was doing well with the intuitive eating process before my cycle hit last week, so I’m hoping I’ll bounce back into it quickly. However, just listening to one CD this morning made me realize that I have some attitudes that still need adjusting. I have habits and thoughts from my “past life” that I desperately need to let go of.
Please bear with me as I continue on my journey. I am not giving up and, by golly, I will see my way to a healthier weight and healthier attitudes towards food. 🙂
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Weigh-In … Not Surprised

Posted on February 12, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Today’s Weight: 208.0

Loss/Gain: +1.5 lbs.
Total Loss So Far: -23 lbs.
I haven’t drank hardly any water this week, I think the only fruits/veggies I ate were one banana the other day and a salad with dinner one night and I have eaten when I’m not hungry many times. When I was eating a few, and then a few more, of the chocolate no-bake cookies my friend brought over Monday night I enjoyed them…until I saw later they were 190 calories EACH. Unfortunately that didn’t stop me from eating them. I think I ended up eating 9 of the dozen in the course of a day or two.
So, I’m not surprised that I saw a gain. I’m not making excuses, just telling you what happened. I won’t quit and the following post will tell you more about my struggle.
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Much Better

Posted on February 11, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding
I have a busy day ahead, so I’ll keep it short. I just wanted to let you all know that I’m doing much better today.
I spent some much-needed time in Bible reading and prayer about the stressing situation yesterday. God always amazes me how he sheds light on things through his word and never gives up showing us just what we need right when we need it – even if it’s something we already knew.
I know that may not seem weight-loss related, but I’ve been amazed how my emotions are so closely linked to my weight and food issues. So, when I dealt with the issues I was going through, and chose to give it all back over to God, everything else in my life fell back into proper perspective, including my weight loss journey.
So, thanks for your supportive comments and I will catch up with everyone later!
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Stressed

Posted on February 10, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Well, last night I called my mom and in the course of conversation told her that I’m sick of worrying about food. I go into “diet rebel” mode where I just don’t care, and that has been the past couple of days when I have other things on my plate to deal with.

Yes, I’ve been a little stressed emotionally, nothing huge, but enough that I’m just tired of it. Will I quit my weight loss journey and go pig out? Um…. no…but I have overeaten and not gotten my fruits, veggies and water in like I need to.
So, I’m going to just take it one day at at time. I know I’ll bounce back and the weight will come off again… First I will just take care of these other issues and try to remind myself that overeating won’t solve anything.
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Nothing Much

Posted on February 9, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Well, I am alive, though I’ve been pretty busy. Yesterday I finally had time to relax and catch up on some much needed energy. I almost didn’t go to the gym, but I didn’t want to fall behind and I know I need to go as much as I can when the weather is good. 🙂

So, I started week six of C25k and was amazed that I am jogging so much now. It’s a great feeling to pour sweat and make it through five and eight-minute intervals of jogging. I’m still very comfortable at a 4.0 mph, but can force myself to do 4.3. Breathing is so much better than when I started, but the legs are still sore. Nothing compared to the first week, so that’s wonderful to me.
Today I made it to the gym again for elliptical and weights. I haven’t done the weight machines in about two weeks and I felt weak. oh well…. Like I said before, I’ll do what I can when the weather allows me to get out.
My eating has been horrible. I don’t have a problem with eating anything I want, as long as I’m truly hungry and stop when I’m satisfied. That has not been my habit the past 2-3 days. Eating what I want, yes, when truly hungry and stopping when satisfied…no. Sheesh!
So, I’ve got to reign myself back in with regards to food and keep getting those workouts in. It’s nothing new and I know deep down it’s what works – eat less and move more. 🙂
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Perfect 10 – Update #5

Posted on February 5, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding


Here’s another update for the Perfect 10 Challenge. We’re halfway there!


My Perfect 10 Goals Are:
  1. Complete the Couch to 5K program. Yes – I finished week five!!


  2. Drink 6-8, 8 oz. glasses of water daily. Yes. 🙂


  3. Adjust my eating to see weight loss. No. But I’m not worried, because TOM has arrived and I know that’s what it’s due to.

As for the little tidbit on me….

I love music and I love to sing. I come from a musically talented family where the radio was always on. Now in my house when the old radio shows aren’t on the music is.

My tastes vary, and I like pretty much anything that is clean except hard rock or hard gangster rap. I have favorite music for different times of the day, moods or depending on my activity. My favorite styles are classical, black gospel, many styles of spanish music and then whatever category Norah Jones falls into.

I feel this quote describes music perfectly as it pertains to my life:

“Music is what feelings sound like.” -Author Unknown



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Weigh-In … Small Miracle?

Posted on February 5, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Today’s Weight: 206.5

Loss/Gain: +0.5 lb
Total Loss So Far: -24.5 lbs
Well, I weigh myself every day and being that the scale was up the last three days I didn’t expect only this slight half-pound gain. Not that I expected a five-pound gain or anything, but definitely at least a pound or two.
So, I’m happy for this. TOM made it’s appearance last night, so most of the PMS attitudes/eating should be at an end pretty soon. It’s definitely usually only a “pre-” thing for me.
I’m happy with this for this week and will keep going on. Have a nice Friday everyone!
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Oh, and Thanks!

Posted on February 5, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

I really appreciate all the support you guys give, especially after a pretty down and out post like I posted earlier today.

Your support means a lot to me! :o)
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Growing Silver Lining

Posted on February 5, 2010 by Leah@MyNewEnding

Well, the silver lining around my gray mood got so big today it pretty much took out the sad emotions.

I went back to the store to try on a size smaller skirt and IT FIT!!!!!!!!!!! A size 16w fit!!!!!!!
I AM SO EXCITED!! I was so excited I told the saleslady about it and she congratulated me on the loss.
I think it’s been about 4-5 years since I’ve worn that size. In fact, the last time I wore a 16w I was not happy about it, because it meant I was putting on weight I had worked hard to lose.
Now here I am so happy to be wearing that size.
I was so happy I finally decided to buy a new pair of jeans. I haven’t bought a new pair since I started losing weight and am happy to report that I could buy a size 16w in those as well.
Both skirt and jeans are a tad snug around my middle, but nothing too tight that I can’t wear them right away. I guess I’m so used to things being loose that it’s strange to have them fitted again. 🙂
The scale may show a gain tomorrow, but I will do my best to rejoice in this very significant non-scale victory in my life!
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