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| The next time you are feeling that Weight Watcher’s is “Too Hard”. The next time you feel journaling, weighing and measuring food is “Too Hard”. The next time you feel exercising is “Too Hard”. The next time you think going to weigh in and stay for your meeting is “Too Hard”.
I say the next time you feel “This is Too Hard” consider how hard it was/is to: Shop in Specialty Clothing Stores (Layne Bryant, The Avenue, Catherine’s) your choices are limited. Missing Out on Pool Parties because you’re too embarrassed to wear a bathing suit in front of your friends. Not being able to wear your favorite outfit because it’s too small. Not wanting to hug those close to you because you don’t want them to feel your rolls of fat. Not going to the movies, because squeezing into the seats for 90 minutes is too uncomfortable. Not dancing at weddings because you don’t want people staring at the “fat chick” on the dance floor. Not attending family gatherings because you don’t want people to see how big you’ve gotten. Not going to a picnic or summer barbeque because you’re afraid the lawn furniture won’t hold you. Not riding on amusement park rides with your kids because you can’t fit in the safety harness or the seats. Not attending your high school reunion because you don’t want old boyfriends seeing how much weight you’ve put on. Or old friends thinking “what happened to her?” Not fitting in the booths at your favorite restaurant. Having to ask for a seat belt extension on the airplane. Yes, journaling, weighing and measuring your food, exercising, and attending weekly meetings is hard but being over weight is much harder and so much lonelier. Author – Rosie Bops |
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"Too Hard"
I came across this a few years ago when doing Weight Watchers online and was happy to see that this woman is still posting it for encouragement even today.
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Sweetness
I’m having a better morning today, but I have to be honest and tell you that last night before bed I told my husband, “Well, I think I’ve managed to finish off all the chocolate in the house.”
It wasn’t a LOT, it was all actually a few”on plan” treats that I keep for myself, about 15 M&Ms, a tangerine and pretzels. Though it was all “on plan” I know they aren’t meant to be eaten all in the same evening. I’m a little embarrassed now about it, but last night I just laughed and honestly didn’t really care. I knew that today was a new day.
Then my husband tells me, “I noticed your new capris when you came to the dental school today.” with a sweet smile on his face. I just grinned sheepishly.
Yes, even though my emotions were a little high-strung yesterday I was reminded that have lost 16.5 pounds already and I work out regularly, and he was kind enough to tell me that he noticed.
Love dat man! He’s so sweet.
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Thinking Of Others Is Good Medicine
When I finished writing today’s post with the journal excerpt I think I had depressed myself. I just wanted to go and cry. Then I went and read Diane’s blog for today. It perked my spirits right up and I’m so glad!!!
I hate the emotional roller coaster that I go through each month. Her post made me stop and think of the people I could be thankful for that are helping me along my weight loss journey.
I’m feeling better now and am going to go get some chores done, walk and then get to my dental appointment this afternoon. I should have read her blog first. It was good medicine for me. *grin*
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Excerpt From The Past
I’m in the middle of a few worst days where I don’t want to do anything right for my body, I begin to doubt myself/dislike myself and I truly feel like this time of the month is a curse. So, I’m going to post something that I read last week that gives a little insight to my background and the struggle I am facing have faced in the past.
This is taken from a journal entry about 1.5 years ago. Name(s) have been removed to protect feelings.
“March 17,2008 – Comfort Eating That Hurts
Tonight I find myself sitting here typing because I can’t sleep yet; not because I’m not tired, but because I feel so full that I don’t want to lie down just yet. It’s an awful, uncomfortable feeling, but it’s not an uncommon one. I’ve felt this before and just like in the past I find myself thinking, “Why do I do this to myself?”
[blah….blah…blah…private stuff….all about food and family who eat a lot….blah ….. blah…..]
One more thing… though I don’t want to admit it, I’m going to have to learn how to eat less around **** and not feel bad for doing so. I don’t like to see *** eating so much and being so out of shape and so I just go right along with the eating habits so I don’t offend ***, but I need to stop feeling that way.
[ a little more blah…blah …and private thoughts…]
I don’t want to seem snotty about food to ****, but I’m tired of feeling so full and yucky from eating too much…it’s no longer comforting like it used to be. “
I can’t really think of anything to say, except this is my heart wide open for all to see. It makes me want to cry, because when I wrote this I had also written that I was going to work on losing weight, etc. etc. and I never went any further with it that year. In fact, a year after this journal entry I had gained more weight and loss all hope of ever being thin or gaining control of myself.
Thank the Lord this is changing, albeit slowly, and next March I’ll have a happier journal entry to write. (I write this last sentence from my mind, because my emotions are not agreeing with me today...)
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SOMEONE NOTICED !!!!
I forgot to mention in my book-of-a-post earlier that someone at church asked me if I was losing weight this past Sunday! She says to me, “I was looking at your earlier this morning and I thought you look like you’ve lost weight.”
This is the first time someone has asked me if I’m losing weight. YIPPEE!!!
I, of course, was thrilled and was happy to tell her the blouse I had on didn’t fit me last spring. I told her how much I’ve lost so far and it’s slow goings, but I’m doing it. She smiled and just kept saying how she could tell.
This did my emotional-chocolate craving-hormonal self lots of good that day!! **HUGE GRIN**
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Deliverance Is Coming!
What a busy weekend, and I just now have time to sit and blog and catch up on blogs. Whew!
Well, Saturday I started my cycle and the “old” me came out to have a large plate of Chinese food for lunch and then half of a chocolate-chocolate chip Sam’s club muffin for dessert. I didn’t even care. I wanted that chocolate and I was going to have some. However, later in the evening I was busy cleaning up my craft area up in our kids’ playroom and I came down to inform my husband that the kids could have leftovers or sandwhiches or something for dinner, but I wasn’t going to prepare anything. I still wasn’t hungry after that large lunch and neither was he, so he was fine with that.
I wasn’t hungry. I didn’t want dinner. huh???
I ended up going to bed having only an 8 oz. cup of V8 Fusion juice and water the rest of the evening.
This was definitely not the old me way of doing things. The old me would’ve eaten all that, been slightly full later and still sat down and had dinner on top of it all and then probably more chocolate.
Had I not been so tired I wanted to post about it that same night. I was so excited that food didn’t sound good even though it was dinnertime again, and because I was still slightly full and it didn’t sound good I DIDN’T EAT. Glory! 🙂
Well, this happened two more days. I had a full-sized lunch both Sunday and Monday and then had something chocolate later in the day. When the evening came around and I wasn’t really hungry I just had a light snack instead of another meal and all was good.
Now, this morning I told myself, “No more chocolate muffins. I know you’re feeling like chocolate and Pepsi is the only thing that you want right now, but it’s really not and you need to stop.” So, I’ve done fine today. Back on track with only about 5-6 M&Ms after dinner tonight for a sweet treat.
I don’t want to ramble too much, but suffice it to say that I am very excited with this change in my thinking. To know that I could allow myself something my body was craving and then not eat later, no.. not even desire to eat later, because I was still full is so amazing to me. Praise God! I can see the the light of deliverance beginning to dawn on my life and I’m so glad!
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Weigh-In … More Fiber,Please
Today’s Weight: 214.5
Loss/Gain: +/- 0 … maintain
Total Loss So Far: – 16.5 lbs.
I was a bit sad that I wasn’t down this week, because I’ve exercised regularly and I’ve been careful about my eating. My eating has been fine portion-wise, but I noticed earlier in the week that I hadn’t been eating that many vegetables. Looking over my food journal I noticed it was true the entire week. There were hardly any fruits and vegetables in my week. I won’t go into too much, but let’s suffice it to say that a good dose of apple juice and high-fiber something right before bed last night would probably have helped my weigh-in today since I also had a good helping of white rice in my dinner last night and not one fruit or vegetable yesterday. I know I shouldn’t try and “trick” the scale. So, instead, I will work on getting in more fruits and vegetables this week, because I learned today that it does make a difference.
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Now You Know
***Preface: I have to say that I’m nervous to post this, because I feel so committed by doing so, but I’m thinking that it’s good for me to get it out. [deep cleansing breath]***
When I started on my weight loss journey I decided right from the start that I wasn’t going to begin any specific diet plan. I was not going to join Weight Watchers or anything else. Two reasons, (A) I don’t have the extra funds and (B) I know what I need to do and I didn’t want the feelings of failure to set in if I wasn’t following the plan correctly, etc. etc. I knew it was going to have to be baby steps towards a healthier me and I needed to get going at my own pace.
Sometime during the beginning of this journey back in May and June I began looking up some different weight loss blogs. During my search I came across the site www.fittothefinish.com and I suddenly felt a connection. This was a site not just about someone who had lost a great amount of weight, but it was also about a person who lost it 12 years ago and had managed to keep it off since then. It was also about a lady who did it by not following a certain plan, but one that she figured out on her own and it worked for her. Her name is Diane and the plan she followed to lose weight looked very similar to how I thought about what I needed to do to lose weight.
No calorie counting, no points counting, just:
1. Exercise Regularly
2. Watch portions
3. Keep fat % down
Okay, so the first two were how I was starting my weight loss journey and I just decided to kind of ignore the last point for the time being. I fought making healthier food choices with everything in me and wasn’t ready to give up high-fat foods just yet. This was a good start for me though and I began to follow her blog daily. Inspiration, encouragement and direction greeted me every day from that blog and I knew I had found something that I could work with.
Finally about a month ago ( I just looked it up and it was exactly one month ago today) I admitted to Diane that I was going to give her entire plan a try, which meant cutting out out the high-fat foods. She has been a great mentor on my journey and though it’s not always easy I can already see some of the difference following her plan is making in my weight loss journey.
Now, to be completely honest, I still eat some foods high in fat (like the Jambalaya I made and ate this week), but in small portions and I compensate for them during the day/week.
I said all that to say this…. if you ask what plan I follow it’s Diane’s plan at http://www.fittothefinish.com and that’s why I added the button to the side of my blog. I still think Weight Watchers is great, but Diane’s plan just fits with my lifestyle, my family’s lifestyle and it’s working for me! Now you know.
Have a great long weekend everybody! I’ll be checking back in tomorrow morning with my weigh-in.
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Bench Warmer or On the Field?
In the walking DVD I did yesterday Leslie Sansone said something along the lines of, “I’m an athlete – I’m a mother of 3!!” I laughed and agreed, but then I thought more on it and remembered how Diane at Fit to the Finish has said as an overweight mom she spent more time on the couch than doing things with her kids. I was the same way. “No,not right now.. I’m too tired. etc. etc.” Or I would do things with them and it would wipe me out for the rest of the day, thus making me not really want to finish any other responsibilities I had to do that day.
So, my thoughts while I kept walking turned to are we mothers (or fathers) parental athletes that sit on the bench the entire game of life or that get involved on the field and gives our best? While I do think we all need to have time on the bench to refresh and regroup I think we know that we need not look at the bench as where we belong on the team for the entire game.
I used to be a bench warmer, but now I’m working on being a more fit, energetic “on-the-field” mommy athlete! What about you?
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Great Challenge Idea
I’ve told you before that I’m not much into challenges…they scare me. I think I get afraid that I won’t actually lose any weight and then I won’t meet the goals and I’ll experience more feelings of failure, etc. etc. I’m not in this to lose weight quickly, only consistently.
However….
I saw this great challenge on Pam’s blog a few days ago that is originally from Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans and I think it’s a great idea. I emailed them and asked if it’s too late to join it and I’ll see what they say. I figure even if it’s too late to join officially, then I will just do it on my own. Click on the button to check it out!
I’ll keep you posted on what I find out from them.
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My New Ending 
