I wasn’t going to post this, but I decided to go ahead and share and be honest.
Saturday I took my 11-year-old daughters to a birthday party at a splash park/pool. We had already been at another birthday party for the hour-and-a-half prior to this one and it was warm out, about 90+ degrees with humidity.
When we arrived at the splash park I mentioned in passing, “Whew! I should’ve brought my bathing suit!” To which both responded with a quick look of slight horror and Ballerina gives me quick shakes of the head to say “PLEASE NO!!”.
I was like, “What??” Then I discreetly pointed out two women sitting in swimsuits on the edge of the pool who were larger than I and reminded my daughters that at least I always wear my hawaiian cover up that goes to my knees.
Ballerina finally says, “Well, just don’t ever wear a bikini!” and we all laughed. (another story for another time).
Though we laughed through it and I think they were only embarrassed because their friends from school would be there not because I would actually wear mine in public (which I did at the lake a month ago)..I was hurt.
This was the first time that I remember any of my kids being embarrassed of me and my size.
I kept thinking, “I’ve finally comes to love myself as I am, get over what other people think, swim with my kids if I want to because I know I’m working on it and now I’m being rejected by them!!!!!!” Brats.
When I pointed it out to my husband he only smiled apologetically, patted my arm and said, “Motivation.” It wasn’t the response I wanted.
I won’t dwell on the little bit of pre-teen brainlessness and I will try to use it to motivate me; but it was definitely not my favorite-est of moments and something I hope I NEVER have to hear from my children again.
Side Note: I told another mom and she laughed and said she’d just “embarrassed” her 14-year-old by dripping mustard on her blouse in public….so I’m encouraged by that and knowing my kids really aren’t vicious..just clueless sometimes. :o)