First the facts…
Today’s Weight: 181 . 5
Loss/Gain: +2 . 5
Total Loss So Far: -49 . 5 lbs
This morning I have proof that the past week has indeed been a PMS week. I know I have lost during PMS before, but this wasn’t the month for that.
Last night I was very, very blue about this gain, as I already knew it was coming. This is my 2nd year weight loss anniversary and I wanted to be closer to 171 than I am today. The comparison monster had me being vexed knowing that some would read that and think, “Well, you didn’t want it bad enough, did you?” Nope I guess not.
The silver lining on this is that I have made time for exercise every day this week so far. None of it has been at the gym, so I’m sure that’s why the gain. I can eat extra and at least maintain when I’m able to workout longer and harder. Walking is great exercise, but it doesn’t burn enough calories to counteract some of the eating I did.
This past week I actually had moments of thinking I should just quit and stop worrying about all of this…”I’ll never reach my goal weight”. Thankfully I also argued with myself about how dumb that would be.
So, I will not quit. I know that. Deep down inside I refuse to let go of my grip on the dream of being the thin, healthier, more in control lady I’ve always wanted to be.
And now that will be enough of the sad feelings for today. I will be posting soon with some photos celebrating my two year weight loss anniversary and all the blessings that have come with losing 49 . 5 pounds.